Chapter Nine/ Testimonial/ Arrival at Gates of of Hell at Gate Six Sausalito / by Peter Romsnowsky CEO/President of NCEA Inc

  Voice to text unedited and unpunctuated a work in progress.... Once upon a time I woke up on a sunny and a beautiful day in the heart of Marin County California and there was a knock at the door and a young man with a 7-Eleven Highway Patrol hat and gave me a piece of paper and "said you are served"  if I recall and I looked at the paper and it said that I was being sued and I laughed to myself, as to who could be suing me and then I looked at the name on the lawsuit and it was a divorce lawsuit with my wifes name and I had 48 hours to leave my home and take my car,personal property and trailer of which I bought so we could go in a marriage counseling vacation at my wifes suggestion and then being thrown into it and I found myself falling into a bottomless pit and the paper included a restraining order that I couldn't contact my children for 3 years and of course and I lost it like this only a divorcer wants to tell the children what is going on and I couldn't tell my side of the story or even call my children to comfort them. For all was so well we had the highest joint income of our marriage we have three children with a brand new baby and Sarah and I thought I was on top of the world and that the darkness had passed and I had just gone through 3 years of The Dark Night of the Soul where I couldn't leave my home for that length of time and made the best of it studying and praying until I was healed enough to come back out into the world and I bought a couple of used sailboats and taught myself how to sail and sailed one of them down to Coast as far as Monterey and I was in the process of continuing the journey to Ventura California. Of course I was in other consternation and confusion and disorientation and for it felt like I had just been hit by a truck and I had given my wife my community property under duress by my in-laws and I was pennyless to fight the lawsuit after 16 years of marriage and so after an extension of 72 hours, to leave my home and while the movie Nightmare on Elm Street was playing, that week downtown and I lived on Elm Street it all just seemed so surreal and it was Thanksgiving time and I was planning and seriously thinking or taking the family to my parents house in Los Angeles to have Thanksgiving for the first time since our marriage with my side of the family and all this hell breaks out and so I got into trailer that I bought, at my wife suggestion to go on a marriage counseling and healing vacation back East to Jim Baker's marriage counselors classes and Ministry and here I was living in the trailer and being towed away in my used car down to Sausalito and I parked in the parking lot briefly at Galilee, with the trailer and stared out over the water,o for I had a 30 ft Wooden Boat a sailboat out there that was not prepared to be lived on during the winter of which was closing in on me and so with a friend of mine. That I was going to take down to Monterey to continue my sailing and delivery voyage to Ventura, as a gift to my father who has spent and been denied all the blessings and privileges by being around my wife and I and children as we were perennial least stuck with my wife's side of the family on Christmas and Thanksgiving and all and we live in close to my in laws and their access to our children and not to be in touch with my parents who were virtually and totally isolated from our family and living in Los Angeles, the proverbial 500 miles away and I thought this boat would be a nice little token, for it I had planned to spend the summer with my family in Israel for I had been a partner with a missionary couple at the Petra Hotel at the entrance if King David Street in the Old City and in the restaurant business and watching the hotel at night and managing it and I had also rented a two-bedroom flat unfurnished in Bethlehem overlooking the shepherd's field and I also had bought a youth Volkswagen Beetle during my numerous Journeys to Israel and Jerusalem as part of my International Outreach Ministry of what stretched from Finland through Scandinavia and across Europe to Greece and up from there through turkey and Cypress and then Israel and on another mission across Egypt up and down and surveying it for future missionary evangelism and activity and after driving from Marin County in the dead of the night with my first mate who had a bullet wound in his head from a drunk paranoid that shot him Point Blank and left some pieces of the bullet in his head and he was my only companion and a beautiful person he was and an innocent victim and together we drove into the night on Thanksgiving Eve and stop somewhere to have a Thanksgiving dinner at some truck stop and then drove on across the South to El Paso Texas on my way to the Florida Keys to get warm for I did not want to spend the winter on my cold boat in Northern California and we ran out of gas and El Paso and I gave the Nomad trailer in my car to a missionary whose wife had also left him and taking his kids on the mission field and I crossed the border and we took a bus along the Mexican border to Tijuana and crossed back into California and for the first time in my account life I was all of a sudden homeless and sitting on a bench all night with no place to sleep and watching the homeless people all night and one of them offering me some McDonald's hamburgers from the dumpster and I gladly ate them up and it was the first time in my life that I'd eaten dumpster food and I called my mother for bus fare to go up to her 40 acres in sold at Canyon in the northernmost part of LA County and then we took a bus back up to Marion County and I parted with my friend and he went to my now ex-wife's house for shelter and she gave him a sleeping bag and he eventually died in the sleeping bag in San Anselmo homeless and I moved on to my 30 foot and leaky boat for it had never stopped leaking some time I bought it and I was snookered as most people are when they buy their first boat and it did not have adequate Heat and in fact no heat at all and I ended up getting frostbite on my feet from falling asleep with cotton and wet socks and my feet look like they had jungle rot and but eventually completely healed and I settled in to see the world Around Me Now and the world and I hadn't been apart for some 17 or 18 years, before I met my wife and got married and have been living in a home on a hill and then in an apartment complex that might in law phone and then to a beautiful garden estate and this became how I was accustomed to live in a middle and upper class life and married into one of the if not the most wealthiest influential father-in-law and Marin County and was a former supervisor I knew the judges that handled my divorce case and I knew that if I went to court they were going to have me declared incompetent or insane and that's what my father-in-law always alluded for my devotional and if not fanatical born again Christian faith of which was the opposite of his hedonistic lifestyle and was interested only in having grandchildren and he was also the founder of the mental health units at Marin General Hospital of what she was also chairman of the board and the judge that initiated the divorce was a friend of mine-in-laws and did my sister-in-law's wedding and the judge did finalize the divorce after me fleeing and not showing up and knowing what was going to happen was also a friend of my in-laws and I had no choice but but flea and going to Exile or risk being committed and drugged and possibly Electro shocked treatment as was practice and still is practice at Marin General Hospital and after looking around in this new world that I was baptized in and the same world that I came out of I have to be born again in 1968 and had become accustomed to live in the life of Riley and now I was in lower the bowl again where I first initially started after running away from home during the year of the Summer of Love and hitchhiking back to Marin County of where I lived for a few years before moving with my parents down to Los Angeles and after a year of living there I couldn't stand it no more after living in Marin County and hitchhike back up and the first night I spent it was on the waterfront and in the houseboat of a waitress at the Charles Van Dam nightclub on the border of Sausalito and Marin County Land and here I was again after all those years married and being a minister and an evangelist and the vice president of the New Covenant Evangelistic Association and the first church to sponsor the mission Dios es Amor in the heart of Mexico and the state of durando and now I am nothing again and no wife and no kids and no family and no money and the only skill I do was being a pastor and an international missionary evangelist and we had a thrift store and we had a disciple house ministry and homeless shelter in the first floor of our house and have had homeless people sleeping on our porch and on our couch and here I was homeless, after taking so many homeless people in and turning our home into a homeless shelter and the only one in our town and before that was any homeless official shelter in Marin County and there is a bronze life-size statue that looks like me next to City Hall and San Anselmo and dressed like Indiana Jones and I believe it's a token and a gift by the Angels in memory of me taking all the homeless in and especially even the town drunk James Gronsinski who died and went to Glory in Our Guest House and turn out to be one of the nicest and sweetest people one could ever know or meet and so misery on top of humiliation and I went to a local used stuff store to buy a fork and spoon or something to eat with and the man there seemingly mocking me and saying "starting all over again with a smurk"  and so here I was jobless and houseless and family less, with only the clothes of my back and a boat with a constant leak that I constantly had to attend and could not even leave for any length of time and so here I was trapped in Sausalito and on the waterfront and Anchorage and again looking around and seeing every sort of boat or houseboat or contraption or work of art and with people looking like proverbial Pirates and the shenanigans and hard drugs and plenty of drinking and a lot of sex and everyone was following and former Anglican priest who claimed to have introduced Zen Buddhism to America and his name was Alan Watts and all these old school and old timers had died off or moved on and the second generation of hippies following the beatniks we're in charge now and full of energy and youth they were and parties going on and campfires and barbecues on shore and wine and beer and alcohol flowing all around me and yet again I was totally broke and pennies and jobless and the only other skills I had were as a mechanic and as a property manager and none of these job opportunities presented themselves. For everyone was desperate to find work and in order to live on the waterfront and most desirsble place  to live and the most expensive, Sausalito! But after pondering my condition and being fed and helped Along by and mentally ill, on and off heroin user who bought me cigarettes of which I started smoking again and a beer here and there and taking me to the back of a Chinese restaurant for instance and getting the leftovers from the busing tray and I thought to myself that this is the lowest point and as I walk back and forth in the Waterfront wondering how I could make a living I noticed the Yacht Harbor dumpsters were full of all kinds of exotic stuff that the millionaires would be throwing away and I remembered in the Book of Job where Satan came before God to accuse job and God said to Satan by which way have you come into my presence and he said from going back and forth throughout the Earth and looking for somebody to accuse for saying is also called the accuser the brother and accused Job of being faithful to God, because the Lord has built a hedge around him and he was prosperous and had no one to need and God put job to the test by taking everything away from him and even his health and was reduced to ashes and scraped his body with a pot Sheard and I thought to myself if Satan could come before the presence of the Lord like in the Book of Job by going back and forth throughout the Earth, then I will go back and forth across the world in Sausalito and pick up all the recyclables and all the discarded Marine gear and everything imaginable that could be put into a dumpster from wealthy yacht harbors and wealthy Yachtys and so I became a full time Salvager and  recycler for the next 20 years. Until my back was broken from the hard labor with nodes and spars and arthritis and for the next 20 years after that I perform with two doxies on the dock of the bay where Otis Redding got the inspiration for his famous song and perform daily with my dogs on My Guitar and helping to play it with their paws and my first Taxi went to dog heaven after 10 years for she was seven or eight when I got her and my second Doxie also the same and then I reached Social Security age and started getting Social Security checks and a disability check for all the back breaking work I had done and after taking a year off vacationing in Marin County and working on my boat h

a buying a used Ford Sport Explorer with a 4-speed Overdrive and rack and pinion steering and that  became my pet car or Auto and after a year doing anything I wanted todo and having the money to do it. For not having to pay rent mortgage is her taxes on property and my children's Mother, who is the treasurer of our nonprofit. Wrote me in, as CEO and  president of the New Covenant Evangelistic Association Inc. For we were the last two board members, until we invited Doug storms to be Secretary and my children's Mother   doubled as the Secretary, so Doug could be free to minister and the last I heard he was in Mexico and no doubt spreading the word and Back Again to my story and  proverbly arriving at the Gates of Hell as called by yhe locals. The entrance to the Waterfront of Sausalito at gate 6, whete zombies freeloaders, Saints and Sinners and drug addicts and sex addicts and followers of the former Anglican priest Alan Watts. That  claimed to have introduced Zen Buddhism to America of which in the Far East, nobody's ever heard of Zen  Buddism!? Also I met Alan Watts grown up son and he was a very nice and polite waterfront denisen and was staying at the Zen Buddhist Center at Muir Beach and other places I'm sure like on the water and but I also met the former Roadie for the band The Pink Floyd and he was a fantastic person and perfect gentlemen and had a son named dancer and he was an anchor out off Sausalito on a houseboat on San Francisco Bay and he was the gnarliest looking pirate that I've ever seen on the waterfront pand with a Sweet Soul like gold and I met the man at Galilee Harbor those working on Michael Eiseisner's biographical book who was the CEO of Disneyland and the  Hippie Summit happened and a ferry boat turned houseboat with Timothy Leary and other poets and free thinkers and anarchist  and revolutionaries, before I had arrived and also the houseboats were the hiding place of the weather Underground and the ferry boat to Charles Van Damme was the number one hotspot for bands in Marin County and looking back it was the Fillmore Auditorium so to speak of Marin County, or the Avalon Ballroom and I was too young and dumb to know what was going on and I wasn't even old enough to buy cigarettes. But they always had a cigarette machine there back in the mid-60s and I used to sneak out of my house of my parents, who were sleeping. In Larkspur not far away and catch the bus at night with a friend and go to the Charles Van Damme and we serve alcohol even though only 17 and looked older and it was the Wild West back then with a two-story bar and dance floor and eventually Joe Tate and the home Rock Band called the red legs perform there later on in the 60s after it ceased being a nightclub and bar and dancehall and was revived again by the and it was all just one big free for all and Sausalito and a place for Anything Goes and dropping into this soup late in life at 36 after my unwanted divorce in 1984 I had to learn how to live all over again with nothing like I did when I first ran away from home in the year of the Summer of Love and return back to Marin County where I had lived for a few years prior to moving back to Los Angeles where I was raised with my parents and except for the fact that I had a couple of old and wooden sailboats and one was anchored off Monterey Harbor a 24 ft sailboat called Sarif of which I was sailing down the coast to deliver to my father is a gift in Ventura County of which was the destination of the boat and but the drivetrain stripped out and I had to get a new drive chain for the Lister diesel and while at home in San Sumo and getting ready for the next leg of my voyage my divorce went down unexpectedly and here I was in Sausalito with my 29 and a half foot boat, old and wooden sailboat that never stopped leaking from Below and I had bought it at kermits yard Harbor in San Rafael on the canal, buy a boat salesman and of course I got totally ripped off as usual when a newcomer who wants to be a sailor go shopping for a boat and is a sucker. Pausing to ruminate, it's 449 in the morning June 29th 2023, I've been living on the water in my boat since November 1984 and except for three years in a place called Galilee Harbor in Sausalito, the entire time I've been anchored off Sausalito on San Francisco Bay and I as I have aforementioned I became a full-time resident at this time and prior I had a 30 ft marine plywood sailboat a year or so earlier and spent half my day on the boat and half my day in my home with my wife and children, until I was sideswiped by it unexpected divorce and of whom I do not blame my spouse for as I have mentioned before, I married into a wealthy and Powerful family in Marin County the wealthiest and most powerful County in California and ultimately I was rejected by my in-laws of whom my father-in-law never really accepted me and went along with the marriage and it pleased my mother-in-law and he was interested in having grandchildren and that was about the size of it and after producing three grandchildren I was forced out of the family and could do nothing about it for he held the reins of power in this County and knew the judges that did my divorce and so like Moses I fled Into the Wilderness from the face of pharaoh and like David my wife Michelle was taken back by King Saul his father-in-law and being forced to live on my inadequately prepared boat or vessel and dropped into the midst of a hodgepodge of anchored boats and people of every sort and someone wanted by the law and are hiding and some are displaced persons who have lost their homes and family like I did through a divorce and others are addicted to alcohol and drugs and sex and false religions and philosophies and yet all of these train wreck of a community, like I myself have become a part of and are considered floating Jetsam on the bay and treated with no respect and belittled and slandered and vilified as to currently being accused of contributing to global warning, by our anchors dragging and circles like crop circles and yet the Eel Grass Grows prolifically and we are blamed for destroying the eelgrass on this part of San Francisco Bay and in reality it is so thick now because of all the nitrates in the Bay from the Mansions of millionaires that surround us and fertilizers running off after the winter storms and the Eel Grass is growing out of control in the Summers and then dies off in the winter and this is where the battle lines are drawn now, Plus are floating homes and boats have been declared Marine debris and so-called Harbor Masters and administrators black sharks prowl the water and looking for blood in the water so that they can devour people's homes and boats without do compensation and relocation on land of which they wish us to move into or into marinas that don't want us and that are outrageously expensive and so we sit like ducks in a pond and the hunters have their shotgun, too her verbally blow us out of the water and just like the spotted owl was used to destroy the lumber industry in what's now called The Emerald Triangle of where most of the high-grade marijuana is grown in America. Because the loggers were put out of work and their children became marijuana farmers and that's what they expect us to become and for there is no dry land for us to come to onshore in Marin County, a millionaires playground and the hedonistic capital of California and search for the movie called the serial about Marin County infamous hedonism and high rate of divorce. I am currently learning and relearning on how to be led by the Holy Spirit and not to be anxious about anything and to let the Holy Spirit do the talking and inspiration through me imperfections and all for We Are collaborators and the Holy Spirit is not dictating anything to me and but inspiring me and bringing pertinent things to my memory and I am learning this while writing my autobiography and memoise. Not to be anxious about what to write down or what to say for it shall be given to me in that hour, so to speak as Jesus taught when going to court for his sake and persecution by the accuser of the bread and the devil. Not to premeditate what to say or to be anxious about what to say and have a clearly defined thought process prior to a court appearance as in my case a number since my divorce on the quality of life issues of which I began to suffer all of the sufferings of the homeless and the anchor outs and being arrested along with them for simple things like being charged with drunk in public of which is a common charge when the police want to harass her hassle people at the city councils bequest of Sausalito for instance to get rid of all the poor people and the Riff raft and the homeless and the police say you have to go home and drink and how can you say that to a homeless person who lives in her shoes and needs a little alcohol to help forget their poverty as the last chapter of the Book of Proverbs prescribes and it prescribes judges not to condemn those for drinking in public or even being drunk in public and not to criminalize them and to say as I say and interpret the meaning of that proverb telling the judges to judge righteous judgment and for not to give people criminal records to make it harder for them to get a job and by the grace of God I have never been convicted of being drunk in public and even though I have been accused and arrested for it after my divorce a number of times and in fact I hold the record for being body bagged and shamed hand and foot, and being charged with drunk in public and resisting arrest when all I did was lay down in a non-violent protest position and I was chained hand and foot and carried away and by the grace of God in court God gave me the wisdom to have a jury trial and representing myself as an attorney in Pro per, wowing the courts and the jury to the point where the judge told me after two of the jurors bailed out after I gave my opening statement and one said that he knew me and couldn't be an impartial judge and another said she witnessed the quote police brutality that was inflicted on me at my arrest for non-violently protesting and just laying down and saying Carry Me Away and so there was not enough jurors left to have a trial and the nervous and squeamish and paranoid judge who had who had been pulled out of retirement. Specifically to handle my case because she couldn't be recalled and I was part of a recall movement of judges and a district attorney and I signed the initial papers to recall the district attorney and then I got a call from Lynette Rose to founder of the first medical marijuana Club in the USA and said that she had a beef with the district attorney also and wanted to join us in recalling her and she put up the money and the signatures to put the district attorney on the recall about it and then we ran a friend of mine name Carol Marduez, who is being persecuted for trying to rescue her daughter from an abusive father who was a cocaine addict and dealer and even burned her daughter with cigarettes and the district attorney decided to make an example out of her when she got a court order from Judge Duffy and went with the police to her daughter's school to get custody of her daughter and then the district attorney accused her of making false statements to get the legal Authority and decided to make an example out of her for political reasons for I had encouraged her to run for Novato school board and I was her campaign manager and the district attorney thought that she could gain popularity in votes by going after my close and Christian and godly mother and friend and it all backfired and then we ran my friends brother who is an attorney against the district attorney and of course she out spent our candidate and got reelected and but it broke her health and she could never run again for I had heard that she was having trouble with some sort of blindness and she was being groomed to be no doubt the next congresswoman are senator and being from the richest and most influential and Democrat stronghold in California which is Marin County she would have been a shoe in and because of her eyesight trouble and for as you know Justice should be blind, she never ran for reelection and nobody has ever heard of her since for touching God's child who was trying to protect her child from a Godless man and she will ever go down in history as Carol martus and wrote a book about her experience also after being jailed and imprisoned we're trying to legally rescue her daughter and after being sent to the Mexican border to a woman's prison where none of us can reach her and she endured all this horror and she was a Godly woman singing in a choir at the San Rafael Southern Baptist Church for instance and outlasted her critics and opponents and eventually her daughter when she turned 18 came back to her mother and there was a happy ending for Carol and an unhappy ending to a district attorney who dared touch one of God's anointed and I'm saying all this to say that in court I do my homework before going to court and I've had two jury trials that I have picked myself out of 50 candidates one was over an eviction From Galilee Harbor of which was a false and libelous harbor that lied to everybody about being a Marine Service Harbor to get their permits and just recently even pulled out the dingy doc so the anchorouts couldn't tie up there and it was originally supposed to be a refuge for the anchor outs of Sausalito and a double whammy for Mr Goldbar of the San Francisco Bay and conservation development the organization that gave the permit for the harbor to be a Marine Service Harbor also voted to take out the dingy dock and the harbor was supposed to be a refuge for the anchor outs and we have them by the proverbial Eel Grass that they are trying to use to exterminate a way of life on San Francisco Bay and they are all headed for trouble with the Lord to be continued.. if you would like to send a contribution please do to the New Covenant Evangelistic Association PO box 2404 San Anselmo California 949-79 if one would like to help me feed the multitudes in the park Sausalito, for most of the food comes put of pocket and if your broke, come anyway to Dunphy Park Sausalito at the Gazebo, from noon to evening and get saturated in gospel and inspirational music, for and fellowsip and the word of God...at our weekly barbecue and picnic...Hallelujah had a miracle in Dunphy Park Sausalito last Sunday July 2nd for church and hot food barbecue and Pantry in the park all afternoon long and during the day I met a man that was a schoolmate of My Strange son of whom I've only had lunch with the ones and almost 39 years and he didn't even stay for dessert and has not visited me with my newest grandchild for some time now of whom I've never seen and is still bitter over the divorce for my in-laws head brainwashed my children with their millions of dollars and put all three of my children through universities and paid for their tuitions and made me look like a nothing more than a demented Jesus Freak for loving the Lord my God with all my heart mind and soul and of course my neighbor as myself of which are the two great Commandments that Jesus preached and who said all the other Commandments are hinged on these two great Commandments of which are not written among the 10 Commandments in stone and but can only be written on one's heart by the new birth of the Holy Ghost through Jesus Christ Our Lord to the father and this former High School classmate of my sons said he's going to contact my son and shame him into coming and visiting me and bringing my two grandchildren of which he has never done and I've only seen him a few times since the year of the Big Brother 1984 and I have so needed to go between my son and me and nobody has been able to bridge that Gap and I don't even have his phone number or email otherwise I would try to call and email him and I have to go through my children's Mother and she can't apparently bridge the gap either and neither my eldest daughter and my youngest daughter I've been a strange from also from decades and she is a famous aerialist it was first job was at the Wynn Hotel in Las Vegas after graduating from Leola Marymount University in Southern California and went on to work with the Radio City Music Hall Rockettes as a contracted aerialist and was in a Super Bowl Chevy commercial with the cast of Glee, doing her aerialist act and was on Good Morning America being interviewed after falling during a performance in Hollywood and breaking bones without a safety net and of course the bitterness of divorce and the brainwashing by my multimillionaire in laws and my  powerful political figure, my late father-in-law who has had appointments by the former Governor Brown of California and the former Governor Reagan of California and has had Eisenhower and patton at his Captain's Table in the Mediterranean during World War II, as a Merchant Marine captain during the war and also was the chairman of the board at the Vallejo state Maritime Academy in California and was appointed by the two governors to the State Harbors and Navigation  Commission of California. 

Captain Log July 6th the second day an aging Harbor Seal has moved next door, to my floating home on San Francisco Bay and I was recently wondering where the harbor seals go to die for of all the harbor seals that I've seen in the bay up to around 40 at a time. Sunbathing near the shore of Sausalito on Richards and Bay and here is a seal that has taken up residency for the past two days in my skiff and a very rare event in the few decades that I have been anchored on the bay and I was visited by a white whale on another occasion and that's another story and it wasn't an albino and maybe this agency is looking for a peaceful place to expire?! On the 4th of July I met the man again who has been writing a book about the anchor outs of Sausalito for the past 8 years and is on the final Chapter and he said the book will be out this time next year to be published by Collins and Harper publishing of New York and where he's from and has been commuting back and forth over the past eight years working on this apparently monumental book about the Anchorage and Waterfront people of Sausalito and he told me a story about Richard Dreamweaver and a seal that he friended and fed regularly and I wonder if this is the same seal. For it has no fear of me and usually seals dive back under the water when humans get close to them or they just follow us out in our skiffs in the middle of the night like guardian angels and Richard last I heard is staying with his brother in San Francisco and so if it is his pet seal.Then it's found a new home in my skiff the last couple of days and looking forward to seeing this aging and beautiful and gentle harbor seal for a long time.. to be continued

Chapter Eight / The Philisopical Life and Times by Peter "Christian" Romanowsky

(1) Pain is both a blessing and a curse, for there are far worse things than physical pain....(2) Never share your deepest secrets with anyone, but your family in Heaven and not even your spouse, brother or best friend or even ones  mother...(3) Pain like pleasure, nevertheless and only comes in waves... Never trust anyone a hundred percentv and not even oneself... (4) What I miss about my father the most, is him clearing his throat at night or a while laughing or coughing and watching television, it's just to know that I have a father no matter how mean and contemptible... (5) This life is not the destination, for its the journey... life is a testing ground to see who will reign in the next life and who will be a servant...(6)

Every race has beautiful people in it and every race has ugly people also...(7)  Everyone is born ignorant and the hardest thing for a man to do, is to love ignorant people or their ignorance, through no fault of their own and for nobody knows everything except the Creator, except for one thing one can tell him a joke that he has never heard... (8) For I would rather be God's Jester in His Court for the Jester is the one that comes closest to God's face... (9) God did not create us to be robots, yes men or automatons or puppets, but as His children and born of God and share the same divine nature of creativity... (10) There is no darkness so great as to not have a spot of light and there is no light so bright, in this life without a spot of dark... There is no contest between light and darkness in the universe, for Darkness can never put out the light and Light can put out the darkness...There is no greater power than love, when mixed with Justice and mercy, to the penitent... When Heaven and Earth cease, all that will be left in the universe will be love, some may find it the long way and some may find it the short way and some may not ever find it at all... Hatred is like a cancer that eats one up when after it first feels so good and right and ends in pain and suffering and hatred of oneself... Nakedness is close to Godliness, when one has no guilt or shame...God does not produce cats and dogs, but produces children... There is nothing broken in this world, that heaven can't fix in this life, or the next...A clsy pot is worthless until it is put into the fire and hardened....The appetite for food is stronger than the appetite for sex and he who can over come this appetite, has overcome all... The next thing to making love a beautiful woman is to be sailing a boat.... the Creator gave us omnivorous teeth, so one will never have to feel guilty for eating flesh, for strength and not for lust... To look at a woman to Lust For the First Time is forgivable and but for the second time, it is a sin...The difference between rambling and babbling is that babbling makes no sense and rambling is full of words that makes sense..The  reason carbonated drinks taste so good is because all the bubbles cause pain and of which enhances and triggers the pleasure of whatever one drinks, for even one of the ingredients of sugar is salt...(11) Finding the balance between Pleasure and Pain is pure ecstasy...(12) The worst curse that one can be put upon A man is to live a life of pleasure and ease without purpose...(13) Silence is golden when one hears no criticism, from anyone, when after making a passionate statement and even when no one hits the like button...(14) some people are perpetually stuck in reverse and nothing one can say to them will make them feel positive or good...(15)

Wise people are genuinely looking poor in their appearance, for their true riches are more valuable than rubies and jewels and can wear a crown of laurels with dignity other than a crown of gold...(16) a true rich man does oh he can do to hide his riches from others as not to make them feel jealousy and a truly poor man does everything he or she can, to show their riches foolishly...(17) I would rather have the lowest position in heaven than the highest position in Hell....(18) Mankind's greatest fear is to be a second-class citizen and that's what the unenlighten will be in the next life, chopping wood and carrying water for the hot tubs of Heaven....(19) A Small Miracle is just as big as a big miracle and don't stop thinking big...(20) it is so much better to praise someone else, then to praise oneself, for everyone will have a turn to be praised, without praising oneself...(20) Humility and meekness is the greatest gift on Earth, for Moses was the meekest man on Earth...We, that can make you lose your teetlh or break your nose are taught by the master Jesus Christ, to turn the other cheek and not let Pride pull you into a fight, by absorbing a simple slap of pride or the or the loss of one's teeth and broken nose..(21)One  can be the most righteous man on Earth or the least of all the sinners and yet suffer the worst calamities that a human being can experience and go unrewarded...(22) The mind's eye is the greatest eye that one can see with...(23)....The greatest tragedy that a man can experience, is to own the whole world and have no one to share it with...(24) The greatest gift in life is to have a pain free breath of fresh air....(25) 4:14 Neglect not the gift that is in thee, which was given thee by prophecy, with the laying on of the hands of the presbytery.4:15 Meditate upon these things; give thyself wholly to them; that thy profiting may appear to all. 1 Timothy1....(26) Man's greatest fear is to be afraid of being alone, without learning to be  alone with God...(27) Among the greatest fears and tragedies of mankind in the world to come, is to have to live your life all over again with no hope in the end, after living one's life again and toiling to repay for one sins, with nothing to show...(28)There is not a man or a woman on Earth that would press a button to extinguish their life and being forever as though they have never existed and no man can press a button to extinguish all their sins in the next life and be no more and be Scott free...(29) The fear of the unknown is ultimately man's greatest fear and a fear that can only be conquered or understood by lthe mystery of love and poetry ....(30) when finding something in the Bible that seems contradictory or cruel or unusual one must only look to or read the Bible, as the greatest book of poetry ever written or compiled on Earth...(3) One must never make a Doctrine on Earth from the Bible, by simply and only one verse,  but all the verses must be feathered together into a dove eventually...(31) All sin and wrong ultimately comes untimately from Fear,  of which is the opposite of love, for God is love...(32) All unforgiveness and hatred and pride, comes from within and not the object of the one hated or thing hated ...(33) No one likes to be around an anxious person for anxiety repels people away and the world is looking for an anxious free person to follow...(33) anxiety is like sand in the mind of fine machinery and worry accomplishes nothing...(34)

 

The best actors and guitar players are those who are best at Faking It, or by improvising...(35) Words are nothing more then vibrations and some vibrations are good and some vibrations are bad, for there are many ways to say I love you and only the vibrations give real meaning to the words, "I really love you"...(36) Never tell anybody to start worrying or to be anxious about something or to say you better  start fearing this or that is about to happen as though it was a self-fulfilling prophecy...(37) Fear jams up the mind and fight is a delight when the time or moment is right...(38) some people Delight in Fright and horror movies and wonder why they have bad dreamsI...(39) Some people face their fears and are able to climb straight up to the top of mountains and others look down and are paralyzed with fear...(40) Never go near a drowning man that is panicked with fear, until that person can't fight anymore against the waves and water and then can be rescued, at the point of total exhaustion, from fea to the point of drowing...(41) To have a brave heart is the greatest badge of courage and the greatest of gifts in the face of trouble or adversary....,(42) Alexander's horse named Bucephalus was afraid of his own shadow, until Alexander pointed him away from the fathom shadow of fear and into the sunlight and then  became the most renowned horse in history and even a city named after him...(42) I once had a friend who tried to save a drowning person and the drowning person clung to him so hard out of here, that they both drowned...(43) I have replaced doubt with faith and fear with a braveheart and anxiety with concern and I will never use the words, that I doubt this or that or I fear this or that or that  I'm worried about you and never teach others to do so by God's Grace....(43) There is not a perfect person on Earth and one can always find something to criticize in another...(44) The goodness side of a person will always look for the goodness side in others...(45) Do what I say or do the opposite of what I do, for they are both the same at times...(46) If you or the government want to destroy, or undo someone, then give them all the unearned money that they can spend...(47) A wise man once said that in Athens, men rule over women and women rule Athens...(48) The higher the mountains one must or seeks to climb, the deeper The Valleys...(49) One does not have wait for the ocean to freeze  over, before one  can walk on water, in a emergency, unless you bet somebody that you can for fun and make one with until the sea  freezes over...(50) my train of thoughts go in and out of tunnels and sometimes they don't come out, for weeks or months to be able to continue the conversation...(51) People that wear Rolex watches are most likely to be rolled...(52) men that work with their hands never wear costly jewelry...(52) The most powerful perfumes are a man's Musk and a woman's pheromones and we do all to cover them up with something artificial...(53) There are people living in space and people still living on Earth still in the Stone Age and so much for the theory of evolution, of which the first four letters spelled backwards are love for  evolution and the survival of the fittest is the lack of love and God is love....(54) The day you find the perfect Church, it won't be perfect anymore because you have arrived...(55) A seamless life is all that anyone could ask for, like the robe of Christ was seamless and could not be divided...(56) People believe they hear God in the lightning and thunder and earthquakes and yet God speaks more often in a still small voice...(57) People are like beautiful flowers and they all have thorns and so be careful how you pick...(58) If you don't want any dung in your life, then don't have cattle and if you do then, use it as fertilizer...(58) It is better to wear the Greek and Roman Laure,l then to where the crown of a king for both these republics and democracy despised the crown of gold...(59) Every Garden of Eden on Earth has a serpent in it and only in Paradise, will the garden be free of serpents...(60) Even the vomit of the rich has precious chunks of food and meat in it, for the starving poor...(51) without thunder and lightning and rain storms we would take blue skies for granted and the white puffy clouds and 

 birds soaring in the air uwards on thermals,  that come after a storm...(52) Pain and depression won't last forever for they come in waves and so does pleasures and joy for they also come in waves, as life goes spiraling on either upwards or downwards and but love is eternal...(53) humility and humbleness are the greatest gifts, for that's what Kings and princes long for and have their greatest Temptations to do the opposite and for Moses according to the scriptures was the meekest man on Earth...(54) the proud and boisterous person wants to be the life of the party, without picking up the tab...(55) The fool is offended when his pride is hurt and where the is humility,, no one is hurt..(56) it is better to cover for for another man's mistakes in secret and one will be rewarded publicly in the future by heaven and not man, of which is only an instrument...,(57) If a man steals to eat from poverty, from no fault of his own he will not be judged and only ask to repay when he is able and if a selfish man steals, he shall be fined fourfold and his hand shall not be cut or give him cruel and unusual punishment...(59) one cannot have olive oil without crushing the fruit first and deal with the pit so also one cannot make wine without crushing the grapes and patiently waiting for the fermentation and so also in making omelette...(60) my favorite Pastor who happened to be black and raised in the south in a rural area,  said that as a child he tried to help a baby chick hatch out of it's egg and he thought that he was helping the baby chicken and the chicken died, because it needed that last burst of energy of struggle, to release healing and fortified enzymes to survive...(61) when a disaster strikes such as an earthquake or a hurricane the poor are the most likely to survive and benefit from the disaster or the judgment, for there will be much left over to salvage or to recycle and the poor are also better equipped to go without hot showers or running water and eating discarded or dumpster food and  living in uncomfortable conditions...(62) I heard a famous opera singer once say that he was blind and but could see and I say that there are those that can see and yet are still blind...(63) When one gives to a worthy person, they are not just giving, they are investing in the best thing one can invest in and that is friends and of course the poor also, that cannot pay or never seen again to pay back, but remembered by the Lord, even if it is just a cup of cold water....(65) Wisdom comes with age and with some, they are still old fools and love, or the lack of love, makes the differance between a wiseman or a fool...(66) Dealing with pain takes away all one's worries, anxieties and family problems, for there is nothing to deal with but the pain and pain never lasts, so enjoy the anxious free moment...(66) living on my anchored out, or moored boat,  like a hermit on San Francisco Bay for decades, I have monsters under my bed every night, but I dare  not go fishing in the day from concern of pulling one up.and into my boat...(67) Once Upon a Time I went fishing off Sausalito on San Francisco Bay and I hooked onto what I thought was a massive and fighting game fish and I eventually tired it out to reel it in and put it into next to my sailboat, on a sunny day and what I thought was a game fish was a black Bat Ray that someone had caught before me and head cut off his stinger and I left it in the sun too long mama before releasing it and while looking at this Beast, it seemed to curse me,  with it s horned eyes and eventually after releasing it and  rolling to shore and as I climbed out of my boa on the beach a palm branch struck me in the leg and hit a nerve, the pain was so great that I had to go to the emergency room and looking back, even though that black Bat Ray had no stinger, it still got me and so I learned to respect God's creatures, more than ever before and so I rarely go fishing  for sport...(68) When the world looks ugly around you, then close your eyes and look into the other world and after a while,  when you come reurn, the world will look like a better place, Through The Eyes Of Love...(69) The greatest Greek tragedy in my mind, was the story and life of the Athenian  General Alcabidies, on whom the gate of Western Civilization turned and as he went back and forth fighting for and in between the Spartans and the Athenians, during the Peloponnesian War of ancient Greece and his cover of Socrates, under Fire and as Socrates did for him also to begin within a prior battle  and of which, put a stain on him in Athens and contributed to his death sentence on ultimately being accused of blaspheming or talking down the  Greek gods to the youth of Athens, and as so was Alcibidies was originally condemned to death, for after destroying or defacing a statue or statues or Mercury, in Athens and profaning the Elysian Mysteries and meanwhile fought on both sides of the Peloponnesian War and consorted with the King of Persia, an enemy to both sides to save his life and whose father before him was the main General of the Athenian Army....(70) in ancient Rome people were held as slaves and in modern times they are called employees without job security unless contracted...(71) The more one meditates the more one gets things done, for in meditating the mind becomes more clear, on how to do things more eaily, without confusion and distraction...(72) The scripture say "Vengeance is mine," says the Lord and it belongs to Him and those that take vengeance without His approvel, are stealing from Him...(73) It takes a lot of patience to be a doctor...(74) Once Upon a Time why I lay in my bank on my anchored and aging sailboat, I heard a strange noise outside on San Francisco Bay, off Sausalito and when I heard it again I went out to investigate and I saw the nose of a white whale spouting outside near my boat and I was awestruck,  for it was not an Albino white, but white on the back and sides and interesting that Franis Drake named Marin County and North New Albion after the ancient name for England, Albion of which means white, like the white cliffs of Dover...(75)  A bolt or a screw, will never tithen itself, but only will come loose, without maintiance...{76}  A loose headed claw wrench, like a pipe wrench with teeth, can be better the a fine and machined Cresent Wreach...{77) Better to wait and surprise someone, then giving one time to worry or doubt...{78} Worry is like fine grass of sand, in the machinery...{79) Time heals all wounds and wounds all heels...{80) Few will be given over five billion heartbeats and how will one spend then the rest of the one's, we have left...{81} The bigger the mountain of worry, the greater the challenge for those with faith...(82) Worry accomplishes nothing, but takes the joy of life, out of one's soul...(83) Worry is like sand in the fine machinery of one's mind (84) Worry as a demon must be cast out at all costs (84) Anxiety also as a demand, must be cast out at all coasts also (85) Pain and sickness and disease are all potential demons, that must be exhocised (86) The World has gone mad, when paying millions for sports objects and such (86) One cannot see the sky reflected in a pond, unless it is perfectly calm ad be still and know that I AM, the Lord (87) severe alcoholics wa89)ke up the next morning so guilt-ridden for all the shameful acts they committed while they were drunk that they have to get drunk again just to forget again and again and again and again (88) Never seek after signs only appreciate them when you see them (89) The most common excuse for brother not helping brother is that they they don't want to be helped (90) It's not the first punch that counts, but the last one (91) Our good feelings are not as a result of being good and perfect all the time, but our good feelings, are because God is good and pefect... (92) The time to stop being anxieious and depressed in now and not a second later....(93) The battle has nothing to do with anything external, but the battle is all within and has nothing to do without for the Kingdom of God is within as Jesus spoke....94 When you feel the weight of the world on your shoulders, remember the Lord will give you the strength to bear...(94) Life is to  short and sweet, to be bitter....(95) A whisper is heard louder then a shout...