Another Chapter in the book The Life and Times on the Sausalito Waterfront

Weekly Jesus Festival every Sunday starting around noon with hot coffee and drinks and hot food around one O'clock and Fellowship time around mid afternoon when we are all fully awake here on the Waterfront of Sausalito and Anchorage denisins are finally awake with supper in the late afternoon in front of the Sausalito Senior Center and Library Sausalito City Hall building patio area and bring something to share for the pantry and or prepared food in a County where movements begin like the Mountain Bike and the first Rock Festival on Mount Tamalpias called the Majic Mountain Festival and the United Nations was dedicated here in the famous giant redwood forest close to Sausalito and Zen Buddhism with Allen Watts and the hot tube movement from the town of Fairfax and the first Medical Marijuana in America despensory in Fairfax also and the first porno movie to go mainstream called Behind the Green Door in Sausalito at the former Alta Mira Hotel and now a high expense drug recovery center and many major hedonistic cult movements in Marin as well as being  the Hedonistic Capital of the World (watch the movie The Serial filmed in Marin County) for that matter also being virtually the richest most lush and most desirable place to live in the world, if you have the money to move here or otherwise, the water is the only place to live if one is not a millionaire and the millionaires are trying to stop people from anchoring off shore where Sir Francis Drake first anchored off Sausalito, after the incoming tide during a fog bank drew him to the entrance of San Francisco Bay before anchoring off Sausalito and making first contact with the native American Southern Miwoks who were  also called The Water People and when a brave Miwok paddled out to the boat, that they thought came from the Heavens with thier departed ancesters and they exchanged hats as gifts with the brave warrior giving him a Crow feathered  headdress and Drake giving him a cap or hat that was the worse end of the deal because unbeknown to Drake that the Miwoks were the best basket weavers in the known world and as written by local Miwok descendant,  who wrote a book about the entire encounter with Drake and the Great Festival given to him on June 26 (my birthday) in the year of I forget 1567 or something and was the thier first  encounter with Europeans and Drake took it for an sign that they excepted him as Chief before he left after building the first English fort or wall in Novoto near the Chief village of the Miwoks and left tons of silver bars buried before sailing around the world to evade the Spanish ships waiting for him South after plundering ship and land for gold, Jewels, silver and wine and provisions and later sent a ship to recover the silver of which ever returned !? Also before leaving the rejoicing and crying Miwoks who knew the world would never be the same, after thier first contact with the proverbial aliens from another World, that people who were still in the stone age and had not even developed pottery yet and but like I said were the best basket weavers in the known World and I ironilky the only Spanish treasure ship that ever shipwrecked, some time over a hundred years or so later was full of Ming Dynasty China wear from the Philippians and the natives had the best tea cups in the World and before Drake left Marin County without a scandle with the natives,except one sailor and a Miwok maiden sneaking off together for a proverbial night of romance, which story is still told as an innocent trist, because Drake forbaid any such contact with the native women and treated the locals with great respect, even though the locals thought that they were gods and Drake's Chaplin wrote that Drake showed them that they were not gods but men, because they ate food and gods didn't have to eat and that they wore clothes and such, just like any other men and all this written down more accurately in a local Miwok publication by a Doctor who is related to the Miwok Chief named Marin of which this County is named after and the book name is Drake at Olympia the Chiefs native village where the Chief of the Miwoks and Drake finally met after leaving Sausalito and sailing to present day Novoto California and a beautiful Nature Park there where even the Grateful Dead lived in Chief Marin's Estate and a Drake coin found there also by another party and I have a weathered copy of the book give me my the last Miwok Princess directly related to Marin and her Uncle or Father if I'm not  mistaken wrote the oral traditions down and one last thing before Drake left was declaring it is said that all lands North of here are claimed as part of England and named to his land Nova Albion, translated New England as Albion was the original name of England and the people Drake told Queen Elizabeth had submitted themselves to England and the Queen and for more information on the first weekly Jesus Festival and or what to bring or share one can contact me Waterfront and Anchorage Pastor and Anchorout resident longer then anyone that I personally know or have hear from and would gladly give up the title as the longest known and so called Pirate Anchorout on a Hook on San Francisco Bay to anyone else who claims it and Signed Pirate Pastor Peter Christian Romanowsky  415 374 0734 

Book of Love by Who/Chapter Fourteen/

 

 After a week we hopped on a train and headed for Brendisi Italy somewhere around the heal or call of the boot and caught a ship 🚢 to Peleponese Greece across the Adriatic Sea of which means the Black Sea and made our way by bus too Corinth Greece an place that I had been before and much loved there by the people and a place that I loved and still love over the some your times that I have been there total in my sweet life in Greece and after a few days ministering there too the youth who like to sit in the outdoor Cafe' in the evening and when it's cool after a hot smart day and drink Cola Cola and Tea and coffee with the local Black Robbed Orthodox Priest keeping an Eye on things in his home town Parish and the youth flocking for hear Kenneth play his guitar and sing and I learning how to pick up Greek Words and broken sentences as one of them translated for us and had such a wonderful time after the constant tourist buses coming and going and visiting the ancient ruins being constantly dug up and exposing Ancient Corinth as it is called today due to the fact that a great earthquake had deveststed the then Modern Corinth built over the ancient site and the city moved too a new location called Modern Corinth this day near the famous Corinthian Cannal dug through solid rock too sea level for ships to pass without going around the whole Penninsala Island of the Peleponese of which the hated Nero by the Romans tried to build a canal but failed and few know that around four thousand years ago Pharoe of Egypt succesfully built the first canal contracting the Nile River too the Red Sea and the views from the modest Modern Corinth of today are spectacular the mountains and ships passing to through the canal and blue skys and seas are quite breath taking and the Ancient Corinth site and the village that is there now Called Ancient Corinth is beyond words next to the excecated skeletons of the ruins and mainced  road of the ancient city are almost behind description and the histories thatve  were there are equally as spectacular as the ruins and with the help of the Holy Ghost will try to remember what I saw and experienced and I ei attempt to describe my experiences in Corinth combined in a metaphysical way all four times that I have been there in a Dreamworld of Biblical archeology and the history of this crossroads between the Romans and the Greeks and a place of wonder especially geographically speaking a haveway point between both of these Empires, Republics and Democracies of history and a sacred place in history and border between Athens and Corinth in the Peleponeseian Wars with Socratese as a Hoplite warrior center saving the life of a friend who appently became a very controversial figure in Greek history andrmrmbrribg  during that long and drawn out war with Sparta located in the Peleponese Island like Penninsala and again as I write these words I go into an hypnotic trance like state rememberiing my experiences in the Ancient Corinth do I am about to go into poetic prose of extacy andef by Corinth  intoxication remembering my experiences in this quote magical experience of being is such an historical place and crossroads of history and to try to put flesh and blood on the dry bones of history is quite a challenge and not meant for everybody wholter and  see only the plain and daily things if life where ever they may be and but it is virtually impossible for someone not to be inspired a visit too Corinth, but then again to there are people that no matter what and  are always looking on the dark side or plain side of things and not stopping to smell the flowers and feel the thorns of life and have gone past feeling in need of sex, food, shelter and hard drugs or hard alcohol and cannot be happy about anything always in a dark or  negative film of depressions and insecurities instead of trusting the Ine that createsd them and will take care of them like a garden of delight in His Garden of Eden and on that note we sha go too the Main Road in Ancient Corinth that was dug up and buried centerious ago and made of pure marble likes street never seen before and have never seen since in all my travels sidewalks made of marbel where Saint Paul and Anguilla  Perdilla walked and where Diogenes walked holding a lamp in broad daylight looking for an honest man and Alexander asking him that he could have anything he desired of him and his answer was that he was standing in his sunlight and at the end of the road where it went too the sea he would mastebate on the beach and when asked why he said that if he could only get rid of his hunger so easily as his sex drive for he was homeless and lived in a wine jar or vat as history says for he had never written anything but his memory goes on as the only homeless Philosopher in the hayday of Rock Star status philosophers like Socratese, Plato and Aristotle and he and Socratese never wrote anything themselves to be left behind to that we know of and Plato kept Socratese memory alive and word of mouth by assorted sources alive and to this day we speculate and ruminate and prophesy of his life and onward we go next yok Acro Corinth the city on a mountain overlooking Ancient Corinth with a Temple too Aphroditus der  or Venus with five hundred temple prostitutes and the right hundred year old chapel or early Church that is still there with it's roof sagging so bad that it looks like it's about to collapse and the Temple gone and a Frankish Crusader fortress wall surrounding the top of the magnetic mountain and back drop too the city of ancient Corinth and a most beautiful and romantic place and another historical site in Ancient Corinth was the Bema the place where court was held and the Jews that falsely accused Saint Paul of being evil doer was sentenced to be beaten in public and then there was the name of Erasmus's name carved in marbel at the foot of the ruins of the theater in Corinth who was mentioned by Saint Paul and being a believer and convert to Jesus and the Gospel and was the Treasurer of Corinth and then there was an ancient and beautiful ruins of and early Church building that was buried and uncovered after the earthquake in the nineteenth century and then there was the public toilets in marble or which were very impressive bring holes in large marvel slabs able to accommodate a lot of folks also uncovered and bright in the sunlight and then there was the museum there with Artifacts from the area where the Temple of Escephilus the god of healing was and the worshippers brought clay reproductions of the parts of their body's to be healed were kept and I noticed penis' also and no doubt from venerial diseases from the Temple Prostitutes and there was also a marble statue of apparently Venus with a hole between her legs for flowers or so and it reminded me of what Paul wrote about those who fornicate with idols and then there was the Temple to Apollo the most impressive remains of the last seven Corinthian style Collums still standing and also there was an ancient storefront Church uncovered with a vaulted fornus over it and ancient Byzantine looking paintings on the walls of religious people or Saints and was one of the most ancient and primative Churches that in my imagination ever seen and possibly the first Church or one of the lost first Church buildings in Corinth and then there was the ancient and abandoned ruins of the  cemetery with the tomb lids pried off by ancient grave robbers or archeologists and fragments of bones still visible and when I told the local Archeologists of what I saw outside the main ruins that the tourists don't see he looked surprised if not embarrassed and he dressed just like one would imagine Archeologist would look like with the broad brimed hat and the kaki shirt pants and pocketed shirt and a picture of just what an Archeologist would look like and he was supervising a dog with the locals doing the digging and that was funded by an American University and was watching out for workers possibly looting or pocketing ancient coins and such for my associate on that pecticular time I was in Corinth I was with a Church member and associate named John Newton and he had bought a tiny cameo made of some red jewel stone and profile of a women that he bought from a local and he showed it to the Archeologist and he told him that he could keep, it because he knew not where it was found and after that is when I noticed a female Archeologist was out over watching the workers afterwards and the diggers did not look happy so robe watching over them and for it is also illegal to take any artifacts out of the countryeithout permission unless from an official antique dealer and another thing I saw of interest in Corinth was a weed with stoked green balls on the end that if you even brushed them, that they would bust off like little jet powered spiked balls flying at you to scare you off and the spring flowers among the white marvel ruins in Greece was like something out of a story book fairy tale picture ti see such beauty among ancient ruins was awesome the the air is fresh in spring there and the weather perfect in May and the best time to go there is springtime when everything has been washed by the winter rains and no dust anywhere and the vegetation is a green and the sky blue and the waters Aqua green blue and translucent like a swimming pool and the furthest I have ever seen looking down from a boat off the coast of Greece on the Adriatic to the bottom of the sea near shore was of Greece and it seemed I could see down into the water for some twenty thirty feet and everywhere off the coast of Greece where no waves stirred the waters the ocean was like swimming pool translucuent waters and a snorkel divers Paradise and there was a reminder in Corinth of the four hundred year occupation by the Turks by leaving a Mosque looking little building abandoned and unkept and a reminder of the occupation and yet intriguing looking and historical looking building of the occupation and in general Corinth is a wonderland of not only Biblical history but if the history of the World and it's ancient Western Civilization and a cross roads if such from the East too the West a meeting place of Greek and Roman Civilizations and a feeling that one is in the heart of something of already a crossroads and it's hard not to wax poetically being in Greece and far more then even being in Rome, in which except for the Roman Forum everything looked smog dingy and dirty, compared to Athens with it's white and clean and ocean wept winds like in Athens where even the sidewalk and street curbs are made out of white Marvel and kitchen sinks also are carved out of white marbel and in fact the mountains around Athens are made of marbel and that I have we never seen si much marbel in my life and that I can say that Athens is and was a White Marbel City and I will go back to memories of Corinth as we go next too the City of Athens and remember this is a continuous Prosaic account of adventures written on a cell phone with one finger and will  be edited later ...Love 316 

Life and Times on the Sausalito Waterfront Chapter Five the Dark Night of the soul

While leaning over a dumpster one night in the still of countless night alone and in the cold and dark and with my only companion a dog on my back while I work recycling on the waterfront of Sausalito I find a record album broken and I look at the name of my former music minister Kenneth Hopkins and how he had to move on eventually and I saw his name in the album the The Rose and the song he wrote about whose side are you on and I was reminded that I used to be someone and not just an outcast from my family and will return someday to family and friends and if not in this world then the next for my heart is fixed and my eyes are in the other world the unseen World by the eyes that cannot see, from the troubles and fears and the worries of this world and all the World's anxieties about time and money of which Jesus taught and take no thought for what one shall eat and drink and to take to thought of tomorrow for the things of tomorrow will take care of themselves without worrying. I remember being colistered for three years a few years earlier and I was frozen in time in a darkness one can feel of which the only light was the light of Gods word of which was a lamp unto my feet as I passed through the valley of the shadow of death in my mind and spirit and seeing nothing but the darkness one step at a time and walking on God's word and promises and reading and reading and watching and praying and praying and laying on the floor of my living room for some two years and sleeping there and unable to talk or communicate as I stared into the void and communicating in only in the most primative terms and losing all interest in sex with my wife and only wanting to fill my mind with words of faith and watching every Christian television program on two cable channels for a year, until the preacher's started repeating themselves and prior to that I studied etymology for a year in the floor surrounded by the best books ever written on the subject and seeking to understand the meanings of virtually every word in the dictionary and preparing to be the greatest orator, one had ever seen in my heart and losing all fear of words and fears in general, after coming out of this three year massive depression and monastic experience and having a dutyfull and faithful wife who would go to the libraries and order me books my mail until I became a proverbial word wizard or more properly a WordSmith, prior to that I lay in bed for a year before making it out to the kitchen and then too the living room floor and I remembered the words of the greatest books on spiritual suffering that I have ever read namely The Dark Night of the Soul by the Spanish Mystic Saint John of the Cross a contemporary of Saint Teresa of Avila the cloitered Nun and the Carmelite Order she founded and I remember going to a Charismatic Carmelite Monastery on the end of Blackwood Drive in Novoto California, where the sisters never left the house and sat behind screens to enjoy the believers fellowship with outsiders weekly and taking communion with them, and the other book that touched me and healed me with words, of a man suffering from Scruples of which can be devestating for people called into a religious way of life and ministers and Nuns and deeply devout believers can go through this malidy and those two books ministered to me greatly and the last book was the Book of Job the ultimate book on suffering ever written and of course the Psalms and the Book of Jeremiah the weeping  prophet and as I leaned over the dumpster with the broken record in my hand, I realized again how peaceful it is at night all alone in the crisp night and chill, with my only friends my dog and skunks and racoons and nobody bothering a man proverbly, leaning over a dumpster and weather it be day or night, no one bothers a man leaning over a dumpster and recycling because no one wants to be seen with a poor man like that and so dumpster diving became another Monastic experience, for me in a busy tourist town with people all around and one becomes invisible while working and finding everything imaginable thrown away from jewelry to expensive fancy laugerie, that men are thrown away before there significant other or girlfriend maybe shows up and getting ride of the evidence or just rich playboys or girls throwing away things like this that I could never afford to buy for my wife, or just left on a boat that changed hands and a lot of porno magazines of which I tended to ignore and was even asked to save and sell them to an aquintance and I refused of course and not like a minister and student from the Southern Baptist Seminary that I knew working in a Seven Eleven selling porno and cigerretts and alcohol and I guess that is what is called the situation ethics Lol, but one day after battling for a long time with hate for women in general and specifically tempted to hate my ex-wife and blaming her for the divorce and all my lonelyness, temptation, isolation and suffering and loss of children, I then opened and looked at a Playboy magazine discarded and trust me I've seen stacks of them and left them there and have been tempted  to take some home and but while looking at these beautiful creatures, I thought too myself, how can such beautiful looking people be so evil and then I was watching the 700 Club and the former Miss America or Miss someone, who is the co-host of the telesion program was in San Francisco and as excited as a little girl and blurted out that there was a nude beach on the Marin Headlands across from the Golden Gate Bridge and do I took it as a sign to go there and see for myself what women in general look like naked and for because I had never been to clothing optional beach before, being a married man with children and always went to general beaches, but now divorced and alone for years it was time for me to check this out and maybe get rid of my temptation to hate women in general in America especially for leaving there husbands in divorce courts, of which they are the main filers, last that I heard or checked out and taking over the work place and collage attendances

 through the Womens liberation Movement and I went there and virtually the first women I saw walking down the beach naked and said to me that we are all just family and I also noticed besides her being fat and overweight behind her smiling and kind face and I also noticed her streach marks and eventually noticing the vericous vains and the cottage cheese thighs that women get and realized how fragile a women's beauty is without all the air brushing off of tattoos and blemishes and scars and such and how easy it is for a women to destroy there beautiful bodies, especially with fat that would take a miracle to restore and especially the  Lesbians with a thier tattoos and body piercings in places one can only imagine and how they tended to stay away from the Gay homosexual men on the other end side of the beach and tend to stay on the hetrosexuel side of the quarter of half mile long beach called Black Sand Beach or upper Fishermen's Cove and the tattoos just looked horrible sometimes and how many piercings can one women get in thier secret parts and let me share with you gentlemen, one should know what thier getting into behind all those fancy girls clothes and especially when you see a beautiful women's  face on social media or dating service, that women may have a perfectly beautiful face and will never post pictures of thier overweight bodies and it's a tragidy and shame the people look into face  mirrors more then full body mirrors and once a women's body passes a certain point in being overweight, thier skin may never look the same again and not to forget aging wrinkles on bodies as well as faces and the men just seem to get pot bellies and balding and not having the same skin tone  problems or vericous vains and start to look better then the women in general sometimes and I walked away feeling like a doctor who has seen so much nudity that they are not effected or tempted that much in the area of sex, when there is nothing left to the imagination and of course I was cured of my temptation in general to hate women and not trust them and especially the temptation to hate or blame my exwife for the divorce and taking responsibility for my part and realizing over time that she was forced to do what she did, by external forces and I am a lot more wiser now and have less temptation around women, naked or not and I remembered the Naked Prophet Isaiah whom the Lord told to preach barefoot and butt naked for three years as a sign and a wonder and King Saul stripping himself naked before the Lord in the Temple before the Lord and another minor prophet that wrote that he went naked and weeping over the sins of his land and Adam and Eve being naked and is perfect state and Saint Paul said that to the present hour that he was homeless and naked and Saint Francis who took off all his clothes in Church before his father and his Bishop or Priest and waked away naked after his father had disinherited him for his religious beliefs and faith and walked away saying to them both that naked he arrived into this world and didn't need his father's clothes or support anymore and of course Christ and the ultimate nude protest by allowing the World to strip him naked before his mother and crucified him, when he could have called ten thousand Angels to save him from the pain and humiliation and bringing everything full circle from the fall in the Garden of Eden and the shame of nudity possibly, from over eating as the Lord's first command was that thou shalt not eat of that fruit and whatever that sin be it all started with over eating as a symbol of greed, unless someone has an emotional or medical problem over consumption is the main sin of the world and greed, while people are starving and dying all over the world and the bottom line is that most women are not perfect under all thier clothes that actually make them look more sexy covered up and of course thier are exceptions and it all started with two naked people over eating or over consuming something in general and making ones belly ones god, is a good symbol on man's greed and over consumption and but since parbolically sin started with a tree and Christ mysteriously took our sins and greed's and selfishness back to the tree and paid the price and redeemed us and empowered us not to make the same mistake or lifestyle again and go out and enjoy the sunlight sometimes, unashamed and without sin for whatever one does in good faith and unconditional and selfless love is pure as the scripture says to the pure all things are pure, but to the unbelieving and defiled is nothing pure....to be continued and edited by Reverend Peter Romanowsky a work in progress the Life and Times on the Sausalito Waterfront Chapter Five 

 

Book of Love by Who/Chapter Thirteen/Leaving Munich for Rome

 

  Cloud photo by Peter Sausalito if God and Christ many years ago and relatively recently and Upon leaving Gemany we hopped onto a very sparse train used my mirant workers from Italy to get back home cheep and although we had first class rail passes with folding seats usually to make into beds there non on this train if I remember after a week in Munich and made our way into the darkness at night towards Italy and woke up in a beautiful city on Lake Lucerne in Switzerland and was one of the most impressive cities I've ever been in my travels and reminded most like Sausalito California in Marin. County USA and had cobblestone streets on the side of a hill with a beautiful view of the lake with sailboats on it and most impressive was a least a fifty foot sailing yacht on this beautiful blue lake and flower pots hanging on the streets and the coin money like like and felt like real silver and place that I will never forget after travelling through the Alps at night and morning light and the city was small a quaint and the most beautiful and desirable place to be in Switzerland no doubt and is famous for an ancient wooden bridge and a Cornish or pocket of the lake even had palm trees I was told and can you image being in Switzerland and no wonder everyone wants to live there and from there we moved on into the next night and had an opportunity to take a side train too France on our first class Eurail pass on a beautiful French train heading for Paris as long as we were in Europe but that was cut short after a troop of drunk French solders boarded the train in North Italy apparently coming from a vacation and one carrying a long neck bottle of Wine and it was hugh with a wicker bottom and waving it around and I though that everyone was crazy like this in Paris France and we jumped off the train and and caught an opposite train south back too Italy and travelling in France went through towns like Lyons and another romantic sounding name of a town at night and imaging that we were not far from Spain and woke up in Italy too poverty looking buildings and housing clinging too the sides of a hill next to the railroad tracks and was the poorest looking buildins I saw in Europe with laundry being dried outdoors and such and then we came too the train station in Rome and asked a uniformed and smartly dressed security guard for directions too a hotel and as he was speaking and lighting a cigarette and putting down checking into a pilgrims or Monestary hotel or hostel his lighter flame bust into his face harmlessly but startling him and took his advice and checked into a clean and inexpensive hotel that reminded me of something like in New York City and ba no ambience and then near the Seven Fountains we found a monastic pilgrims restablisment that was really awesome and beautiful and run by Nuns and I remember being irratable about sonething non related to checking in and just from the heat and searching although the weather was beautiful and the head Nun going tis tis with a smile like saying how can you be irratable in a beautiful place of city like this on a beautiful day in Rome and funny later I saw her get irratable about something herself unrelated to our stay at the Monestary or which was the first time when travelling stayed in and was so clean and holy feeling that wow we made it too the promised land in Rome and these would be the places to seek to stay whenever travelling in Pilgrims Monestaries and we the Seven Fountains and very beautiful and then the Roman Forum in the heart of ancient Rome and were awed by the ancient ruins of the main street and so much to take in and the collosium and the Titus Arch of Triump over Jeusalem with the Menorah carved into it while being carried away with other Temple treasures and I side to he Collosium we were awed and then the experience of going to Saint Peter's Ballsiluca and bring floored by the immense size of the largest open air building in the World and climbing the stairs too the top of Saint Peter's and seeing the immense view of Rome and the Papel Garden below and alm in all a has dropping experience and the skeletons of past Popes in glass coffins dressed in thier Papel robes and the awesome spiral columns over what people believe is Peter's last resting place below ground and the museum connected too Saint Peter's was also awesome close by in Vatican City a State in itself with its own post office and passports and remembering the Roman Forum again and visiting the Mamertine Prison where Peter and Paul were kept at different times and a real hole in the ground dungen and the ancient pagan temple ruins with Churches being build into them or converted to Churches and the leacef atmosphere of this downtown ancient heart of ancient and historic Rome was all that I expected to see from pictures in the past and meeting a talking with a long black robbed and friendly Priest and a breeze blowing Italian Lira in the wind at our feet and the feet of another long black robbed Priest and the whole experience was over whelming and unforgettable and peaceful and one could sit in the central park like forum forever and then we visited the small Pentecostal Church that the Pastor in Tatzana in West Valley where my parents lived and learned about this Church and we had no prior engagements in Rome of cobtacts we visited the Church on a weekday service and to our surprise the pastor said that he was expecting us and had received a letter from the pastor that we're were coming too Rome and Bingo we got and invitation to minister for the Lord had pre arranged it and we had a healing service with Kens music and all I I remember a womens fingers were healed and a typewriter was brought out to demonstrate her healing and it was all a revival and wonderful experience for I had been in Rome only once before and never got off the plane from Israel to Los Angeles and a Catholic Bishop had gito to the plane and sat right next too me and he made the sign of the cross and prayed before departing and we began talking and he told me that he was the leader of an Holiness Movement and an author and was going too New York to meet with followers and I shared with him that was returning from Israel as a amissionary evangelist and he can me an apostle for thats what the Latin word translated from Greek means and also concerning the pastor of the small minority  Pentecostal Church, who was in the process of trying to get a permit to operate a fundamentalist Gospel radio station in Rome and getting resistance like the Fundamentalist Christian Fellowship and Church Movement called Maranatha was having the same problem and had to move a small Pirate radio station around to different places in order to not being caught and while going to a Bible school for a gathering when I the car going too at this time an outdoor gathering if I recall on the site I asked the driver where the portable radio station is he said in the car with us and in a briefcase about the size of a CB radio and they string up an antenna up a tree for instance and broadcast over Stockholm and the Pastor and leader of the Church Movement had showed me a pile of Newspaper articles like on the front pages about the Pirate Christian radio station stricking again again to show the effectiveness of their station and broadcasts again due to Sweden has a Luthern Church State and doesn't like competition historically speaking and Finland also but Finland is full of Independent Pentecostal and fundamentalist Churchs....to be continued contact peteromanowsky@gmail.com or 415 374 0734 of you would like to help edit or correct punctuation and Grammer as this is raw data and an outline of a future punished book and just getting my thoughts and memories out at this time and God Bless and Love 316 

Book of Love by Who/Chapter Eleven/With Ken Hopkins Music Minister in Finland and family history

Again while leaning over a dumpster one night in the cold and still air on the waterfront of Sausalito on my recycling routine of which sometimes lasted a night I found a broken album of The Rose bt Bett Midler and I looked at the song "Whoes Side Are you On" and the name Ken Hopkins as the writer and of course I knew that he was a good Gospel song writer and we traveled together for some six months ministering throughout Western Europe and the near East and ending up in Jerusalem and watched him write the most beautiful Gospel songs and sang them in Churches as we travelled from country to country linking up in Los Angeles after myself leaving first on the first leg of our journey and I had prayed for a date to leave and virtually had no money to speak of for the journey and with what little was raised for the journey in a special fund raiding meeting at the Knights of Columbus meeting hall that was rented with Missionary too Mexico Robert Brown speaking and raising money also so with what little was left over amounting to maybe less then a couple of hundred bucks in hand total and determined to leave by faith in the date that I felt I needed to go and Jen had no money at all for the journey and just two young and enthusiastic missionary Christian Brothers by faith I left first and on that day a letter came with a little money for the journey  and a neighbor lady unexpectedly gave me some money for journey also and the timing couldn't have been better and so before leaving I posted my IBM Selectric typewriter in a local bargain paper and took a flight too Los Angeles in the days when it only cost as little twenty dollars on the midnight special and wrote and check for an inexpense flight if I recall and made it to my parents home in West Valley, to raise more money and I spoke to a local pastor who had a minister friend in Rome Italy and he gave me twenty dollars if I recall and of course my parents donated what they could and I had told Kenneth that I would wait for him in the San Fernando Valley and meanwhile my IBM Selectric was miraculously bought by I think if I recall by a seminary student or someone and suddenly I had enough money to buy a ticket for Finland with an open Jaw from Israel and enough money 🤑 for a first class Eurail pass to make the journey there through Western Europe too the City of Brendisi in the South of Italy and mean while Kenneth took his Volkswagen Beetle to his grandparents to wash his car to sell it for a plane ticket too Europe and to join me in Los Angeles where I was waiting for him for.a couple of weeks by faith and his grandparents asked him what he was doing and he told them that he wanted to sell the car and join me on our missionary journey and they gave him the money out of his college fund and said that the experience that he was about to go on would be a good education and he flew down to meet me at my parents home and we left Los Angeles for Europe and I didn't have a dollar left over on the first leg or our journey too my grandparents farm in Finland where I had been there before with my mother ministering and had my first taste ministry there in Churches and gatherings and home meeting at the farm house in beautiful and green Finland a land with a thousand lakes and when arriving at the train station in Helsinki too travel too my Grandparents home I didn't have enough money to even buy the ticket and had to borrow five dollars from Ken for the ride and knowing that we would be well off once we got there by faith without asking or imposing myself a just believed that this is what God wanted me to do and meanwhile, while waiting for the train 🚂, Kerneth opened his twelve string guitar case and started singing gospel music in the train station and people started throwing money into his case he was so good 👍 and we or I was shocked and suprised at the response and I think I tried to tell people that we were not doing this for money or that we might get into trouble for playing in the station and stopped and never in the entire journey did he or we did any busking of which we were entirely ingnorent of doing as young and nieve we were at the time of doing street find raising and I never busked til 1984 and this was aporoximently 1973 or the year of the Munich Olympics and soon after we were on the train heading to bear the Eastern port city of Vaasa the San Francisco of Finland and settled into my grandparents place not far away in a little village or crossroads called Tianus Jurva a suburban farm and lake area of the village of Jurva and on my arrival to the farm on one of my latter journey there I saw for the first time the Auroras Borilla and it started as a bright cloud in the dime light lof a Finnish winter from the train that I was on and when I finally got to the front door of the farmhouse it had turned into a beautiful white ribbon of a curtain moving and waving in slow motion but no color just white and felt like I was standing under a curtain of light and I knew that I was home and my uncle by marriage a truck driver and farmer saw the same Aurora far away all colored with light and not knowing that I had just arrived unexpectedly and I and Ken began  ministering right away as doors started opening to us in Churches and meeting halls and after some thirty seven days with virtually a meeting scheduled every day as word got out to the next town or village in itation after invitation came to hear the young precher and his rock star looking and  music minister and I played to he harmonica at times as well as did some guitar strumming at times also if I remember correctly for he taught me how to play the guitar and after what amounted to some thirty six healing services and concerts we had enough money for the next leg of our journey and we took a large ferry boat to Sweden and rolled through the night in high waves and wind and people were seasick and sleeping on the floors if anywhere they could and that ferryboat sank years later with the loss of countless lives when the front part that opened up to take cars came loose and the super ferry went down in a storm and the only people on the boat that were not sea sick or sleeping on the carpet were Stotic looking handul of Christians sitting at a table and who had not been drinking and making excuses for me having a drink and what I had been doing in Finland to somewhat blank stares as they apparently were not drinkers and never had a drink in Finland and remembering how my parents escaped from Finland in a thirty foot lifeboat with thirty refegees in thirty foot seas of hich sank an American ship that night and the rudder broke and my father got into the water to to fix it as they were running from the Russian  Communists who wanted to kill my father for treason for crossing the Frontline on night during the Soviet Finnish Wars where Finand finnaly ran out of amunition finnaly had to make consections of taking off and arm and a leg from Finland whose map originally looked like a dancing lady in a dress and Finland was forced to give up all Soviet soldiers that defected and in my fathers case he was an officer and would have been hung and after marrying my Finnish mother and had a son with them and I s in my mother's womb we mad our escape and when the boat landed in Sweden where  was eventually born they deported a the refugees except my parents being political refugees and not migrant workers looking for a better life in Sweden and then we moved through Belgium if I recall to England where we stayed for a while where my mother had contacts her grandfather/uncle was head of all missionary activities for Finland internationally and no doubt made contact with a Finnish Seamen's Mission as before in his younger days he founded the Finnish Seamens Mission in San Francisco as a young Lutheran Missionary too Finnish Seamen in the bay area including the Anchorouts or seamen of Sausalito in the eighteen nineties and the mission became a Church and merged with a Danish Church on Church Street in the Castro District of which used to be called Finn Town for that's where the Finnish people lived with thier bathouses of which district later became a Quote Gay Community and the first place to the aids pandemic and the bathouses we're closed and the red brick Lutheran Church is still there across from the Safeway store and found his name in the Church history and I have never been there for a service and it was one of the first Churches to have "Gay" ministers call Saint Francis Church so after leaving England after some six months we can't to Ireland to County Cork and we're taken in as refugees by an Irish family we we lived on Ireland long enough for my mother to become a Catholic and had two more children and then boarded a ship to America and on our way to New York in the middle of the ocean and during a great storm I woke up for the first time and became conscious hold an orange in my hand and trying to put it in a cubby next to my bunk and it kept rolling out and didn't understand that I was on a ship at sea until my father took me topside and I saw the great and giant gray waves in the storm and as we entered New York Harbor we saw the iconic Statue if Liberty on deck if I recallike everyone else for we had made it too the promised land and then my father put my older brother in a Russian Orthodox orphanage temporarily as my mother was still in Ireland with my two younger brothers having visa problems and joined us later and in the meanwhile at the orphanage when our father came with Christmas gifts after he left the presents were taken away from us saying that we could not have more then the other children and fair enough looking back but my brother was unhappy at the orphanage and set a field on fire but I have no memory of the orphanage and then we move apparently to Hells Kitchen in Manhattan on one of the thirty or fortieth streets and the orphanage we stayed in was in Stranton Pennsylvania apparently where the Orthodox Wedding scene in the movie 🍿 The Deer Hunter was filmed in the Church connected to the orphanage and after settling into our nice and clean apartment and my mother dying her laundry on the roof and my father working as an airline mechanic for American airlines he was given a job offer in Los Angeles if he left virtually immediately and we left our beautiful and clean apartment with our model train set up in the living room with no room to take things and that was my last visual memory of New York leaving me and my brothers triain set a poient moment for me and the next thing I remembered was being in the prop jet chewing airline chewing gum to equilize the cabin pressure in our ears in those days abd it was sweet for a five hour old kid and so we settled into a house near Lagona Beach and my father worked at the Los Angeles Airport and them moved again to Reseda California in the San Fernando Valley bedroom community of Los  Angeles on Fault Street and attended Grammer school within walking distance and then moved again too Encino and attended Emilita Street School and moved again in Encino near Ventura Blvd and one more time in Encino to a house near Gable Drive where Clark Gable had a ranch at one time and Gable Drive went up a hill to a water tower and the movie It's a Wonderful Life was made in a studio there that were long forgotten and only hillside house and track houses remained of which we lived in and went to Nestle Ave School and eventually too Portola Junior High before moving to Forestville in  Northern California first by camping in the Russian River campground for it was summertime and a lived beautiful with the Redwood trees and river and then rented a house on Ross Station Road and attended Analy High School in 1964 and then we moved to Larkspur California in Marin County California into a beautiful hillside house with a Redwood garden like park for a backyard and attended Redwood High ...to be continued a thumbnail skeach of my book on one finger typing on a cellphone and no time for puncustion and in due time will be finnaly run through a word processor with the help off my friends and family and grown children for the sake of my grandchildren of which I have three of both and any help I can get in editing and correcting historical facts will be appreciated and please comment and send corrected chapters to peteromanowsky@gmail.com and thank you for any kindness and LOVE 

Book of Love by Who/Chapter Twelve/ Sweden Bound and beyond to Munich Germany men on a Mission of Love in Jesus Christ John 3/16

   After leaving Finland by boat Ken and I landed in Sweden and I don't remember making any contact there with the Churches to minister in and what I remember most about Sweden was it's walking street in It's capital being filled with people and watching a street artist team from England making a ton of money in tips after doing a fantastic street artist performance and someone with a hat getting filled with Swedish Krona and Ken and I were indoors as well as outdoor missionaries, but never crossed out minds to bust for money to supplement out mission as well as getting the Gospel out in song and the Word and although at my age it's difficult to remember all the details of our missionary journey as it's overlapping timelines myself going to Finland four times first time with my pregnant wife and the second with Ken of which I have no real memory of ministry with there my first time in Stockholm and having no previous contacts here even though I was born there and lived briefly as a child my mother told me my refugee father got a job feeding pigs with human manure filled with condoms and hard to imagine as all this was happening before Hitler invaded Russia after seeing how hard the Finns flight the Russian invasion of it's homeland and we're beaten to a stand still in the Winter Wars of which my father was an artilary officer with battlefield promotion too Captain and desecided to change sides and around a million Russians lost their lives in the narrow roads in the forests of Finland and and would not quite fighting the Soviet invaders until they ran out of bullets so to speak and inspired the whole World to be able to stand down the greatest army in the World and Hitler took note and though if they could not over run Finland that it would be easy to conquer Russia and disasterly was mistaken for Finland was a land of believers in Christkne I had never seen before for we had an invitation to speak almost every day for some thirty six days and left with a modest amount of money for the rest of our journey and my mind goes back to my third  mission to Finland with David Penmen a close friend and member of our Church congregation and when we landed in Sweden next we meet a groupe of people and fellowl  believers in the Lord Jesus Christ call Maranatha a rebel groupe of Christians that had an illegal pirate radio station that they moved around Stockholm because they were not allowed to have a legal one or let on the main radio stations and they had a multistory hotel as thier headquarters and invited us in tent free and where we first ministered indoors and then out into the streets preaching and singing and where in the process of starting a Bible School for the Maranatha Church movement was the Jesus Movement at the time of former Hippies for Jesus and full of energy and I remember a Maranatha Church in Norway when there in a big formal building on a solo journey to Finland and we had fun and free hotel for a week or so and my associate loved it so much that he decided to stay and minister and work with them in their school and later went back took Finland before coming home a long time later and in the meanwhile Jen and I took a train from Stockholm too Denmark and the train car was put on a ferryboat to cross 🤞 over too Copenhagen and now there is a tunnel to cross the channel and we went to the area of walking street where no cars are allowed and found lodging with a groupe of fellow believers and Sixties Hippies types and busted a couple of Pentecostal Churches and as usual we would come to a church service early and introduce ourselves to the pastor abd share our mission with them and then get invited to give our testimonies of Salvation and New Birth and then get invited to the next of evening service to do our ministery of song and healing and preaching and I don't remember how we met the Hippie Christians whether on walking street while they were outdoor ministering of at the Apostolic Pentecostal Church and were invited back again to minister on Sunday morning the next week and hile staying with the Jesus Movement Christians in their beautiful and remodeled multistory house call Soli De Gloria at house not far from walking Street that was build a couple of hundred years ago and completely remodeled inside and thats were we stayed for the week and then were invited to come to thier favorite of Marin Pentecostal Church they go to and my music minister Ken was asked to sing there but I was not asked to speak and the Holy Spirit came on me and urged me to leave during the service and go to the Apostolic Church where I was asked to minister with Ken and we left the first service early and Ken didn't get a chance to minister there to the wonder if the pastor who wanted Ken to sing but we're were a team and had a prior invitation and only went too this👍 second Church out of curtisy to our hosts at Soli De Gloria of which we street ministered with them during the week and we were taken to an abandoned military base where the Hippies had taken over with beautiful abandoned and empty house and such and became a Sixties style Hippie giant commune and the Christians had one of the houses and we were invited to minister in candle light so to speak for there was no power there and since then the place has become permeant housing to this day for the poor, young and homeless Hippies a perfect example of homeless people taking over abandoned buildings called Christania and made into permently housing and I remember while street ministering with the residents of Soli De Gloria on walking street when a we dressed lol are man in a proverbial shinning suit with a Communist Party badge on and said that he was a Communist doing business in Poland and told me a joke in my ear and said that there are no Communists in Poland and this was before the Polish revolt against the Russia occupation and from there we hopped on a train a🚂 from Copenhagen to Munich Germany with out first class Eurail Passes and got a seat in one of the train compartments with folding seats into beds and fell asleep to wake up the next sunny morning with some businessmen looking person coming in to sit and opening the window for fresh air and we told him if our mission and he pointed out the border wall fence with it's guard towers dividing East and West Germany and then as we were going through what I thought as the most beautil scenery in Europe travelling down and alongside the 😎 Rhine River valley and seeing the most beautiful castles and German Chocolate rolling hills for we had not seen a hill or a mountain in Finland or since leaving Finland for everything was flat land before  coming to Germany and it was beautiful and idelic and reminded me of Marin County withs it's rolling hills and thought to myself that this is the most looking place like Marin and beautiful streets Autobons and wealthy and maintained looking and what a beautiful country and then we pulled into a magnificent railway station with magnificent trains and checked into the local YMCA where I had made contact with the youth and the youth leader on a ship called the Appolonia sailing from Athens to Israel and in the middle of the Mediterranean I along with my associate John Newton on a previous mission to Israel and we met this groupe of Christian youth making thier way to Israel on a pilgrimage and was asked to speak and share during a service that they were going to have on the ship being Sunday and over the loud speaker they announced to the whole ship over the public address system that a service was going to be held on the ship and what a dream and after checking into the YMCA in Munich we met up again with the youth minister a leader and had a beautiful room in a beautiful hotel owned by the YMCA and everything was clean and beautiful in Munich Germany for this would be the site of the Summer Olympics and we had arrived just before the opening and the whole city was waiting for the great and eventful day and apparently the first thing the Olympics were in Germany since the time of Hitler and the streets were clean and bright and the only annonomy I saw was a drunk German young man with an most perfect American Accent that he had learned hanging out with American GIs and drinking with them for the Germans themselves are a very sober people except during Octoberfest and otherwise I never saw another drunk German except at the YMCA hotel coffee house a Germen youth was a little tipsy and friendly and polite as they served beer at the YMCA and the leader told me that he had visited American YMCAs and he said that in Germany that there were nothingime the 😀 YMCAs in America and were Christian Evangelical so to speak and also drinking was no problem for Christians in moderation and there was even a beer vending machine in the dormatory of another YMCA location in Munich where we stayed and I think we may have ministered so e in the coffee house and then out into the streets and English Park where we ministered outdoors together with the YMCA Germens playing the guitar and singing and preaching open air on walking street and English Park of which last I heard one can go nude in part of the park and had a great and good time and I met a hansom young man named Klaus Publichousen who ran a Teen Challenge Ministry for recovering drug and teen alcoholics on a chicken farm outside of Munich and invited us over and checked the place out andjns everything in

Germany was ean and beautiful although I'm always taken back by chickens in small cages I stead of free roaming and Klaus who looked like an classic Englishmen of fighter pilot came and visited us in Marin County  and ministered in our home Bible Study ...to s be continued in poetic prose scrip and glossolalian words that fail to comprehend outside of Christ but can draw on in too the live and beauty of the Kingdom of heaven within a while still on this sin cursed World enedited.....peteromanowsky@gmail.com 415 374 O734 and John 316

Book of Love by Who/Chapter Ten/ Remembering Julious Caeser in History

In the beginning Adam and Eve were unashamed to be naked in thier natural state in the Garden of Eden until something happened to make them ashamed to be naked and exactly what that sin was that made them ashamed and obviously it had something to do with sex or procreation and in a marriage situation what could that be since nothing is shameful in a relationship of pure love unless it was done sort of form of bondage or overeating in the Garden after breaking the only fast God put in the couple, such as not eating that one piece of fruit in the midst of the Garden, the only probation in Paradise on Earth and it couldn't have been nearly a sex act of which the Apostle Paul wrote the the marriage bed ins undefiled unless the fruit is symbolic of something else connect to sex such as possibly and abortion and or cannabilism or maybe the fruit or plant or vegetable had a abortion causing property mixed with cannibalism or is the whole senerio a parable of something else that could cause them to be ashamed and but outwardly it appears to be something related to sex and procreation and if a parable or something else for instance in my life the last sin that I recall giving up to God in 1968 was not related to sex but drugs and specifically Marijuana of which had become my god as a teenager and I worshipped it as the only thing that made me happy and was the last vestage of conscious sin in my life as I understood was sin was, for I had been delivered from Meth Anphetimine  a year earlier after my mother took me to a Holy Ghost and Pentecostal mid week prayer meeting adjacent to the famous Church the  Angeles Temple founded by Amie Simple Mcpherson after the Elders laid hands on me and prayed fervently in touges over me and the next time I took meth, I thought that I was going to die from this drug and have never used in since and yet I was not yet a Born Again Christian for being raised a Catholic I had never even heard the term or the experience and I thought that being a Christian was simply living a good life and going to Church and I knew sex outside of marriage was sinful and it was the Sixties when young people thought that marriage was a state of the heart and not simply a piece of paper or marriage licence and so I continued having sexual relationship with my sixties girlfriend and I asked her for her hand I marriage and but she also was a long haired hippy also from a commune that I met her in San Anselmo California and felt that love was more informant then paper and her father was a Marin County Supervisor and extremely weathly and intimidating and so I felt that I had tried to marry and my heart felt satisfied that I had tried to marry and but another issue was pressing on my mind for after being delivered from Meth a year earlier and swore to myself that I would never take another drug again except high grade Marijuana always well until some young New Yorkers visited our hillside commune with Redwoods and Ferns and deer in a brand new sash and glass Redwood Grove home on  Spring Grove Ave in San Anselmo and with them came a strain of LSD they called  religious acid and I feel from my fast from hard drugs by taking this LSD on and off for a week or so and made me feel real good and sure enough it felt like a religious experience and then my eutopian world came crashing down for I traded a capsual of LSD for a cheap broken stringed electric guitar and was busted and home raided and charged with misdemeanor receiving stolen property and handcuffed and humiliated in from of my girlfriend and future wife and taken too the local station and then booked into Marin  County Jail in San Rafael and it was the first time my future father in law saw my face on a mug shot and not a good start to a relationship and as usual I was forced to plead guilty and slapped on the wrist or put on probation and cane back to the commune feeling like a moral failure and leader on keeping hard drugs such as Meth, pills and such and LSD wasn't inner moral failure and I pianed in the suffering and struggle to attempt to live a moral and decent and respectable life and I felt powerless to do the right thing with my future wife and girlfriend and the humiliation in front of my commune friends of which I felt the leadership of and I failed to stop that drug from coming into the commune. Meanwhile I started getting these crazy letters from my mother in the suburbs of Los Angeles in the Tatzana/ Encino area saying that she had been delivered from what's called periodic alcoholism where she would black out for a weekend beginning with my parents ownership of the Happy Hour Bar on Ventura Blvd in Encino and she wrote that the Lord Jesus had instantly delivered and healed her at a Kathryn Kulhmen Holy Spiritked Miracle Service and I thought that she had finally snaped and lost her mind after bearing some nine children and thought that it wouldn't last and said to myself that if she had finnaly lost her mind and that at least she was happy in happy land instead of the agoney of a black depression and but she kept writing letters and encouraged me to attend a Kathryn Khulmen Miracle Service and when I realized that sobriety was lasting after instantly being healed with AA meetings or therapy I decided to hichike down too LA, with my girlfriend Becky and during this time I decided to make a deal with the God that I didn't know that if He would love me something better then Marijuana that I would give it up and it was the last conscious sin that I put in the alter, my firbiddon fruit for we all that that one sin that we are struggling with to keep us out of reach of perfection and in my situation this was my Garden of Eden fruit of temptation and had nothing to do with sex for I had thought that, that subject was settled in my heart and mind and some three days later I was Born Again by a rushing and mighty wind of the Holy Ghost who came into my heart in front of the Miracle Service of which we were not able to get in from the crowds seeking miracles and healings in front of the Shrine Auditorium where the Academy Awards we're given back then and I heard a voice coming from inside of me louder then any human voice say that I was forgiven or again and it felt like I had died and gone to Heaven and for the first time in my life I felt one with God and nothing between us and at first I thought that I was losing my mind and pictures myself in a flash being taken away in an ambulance and then I realized that I was not losing my mind because I felt Peace and Love for the first time in my life the very thing all of us Sixties Hippies we're searching for and the voice I heard wasine that of a women comforting me like a smiling receptionist of living mother or dear friend and all of the above and after the extacy and my feet finnaly fell back on the ground and attending First Baptist Church and being baptized in San Francisco Bay in Paradise Cove in Tiburon not far from where Robin Williams Tragickly took his own life I became consciously aware that my relationship to my girlfriend who also thought that I had lost my mind and became a different person then won she knew and non stop talking about Jesus and going to meetings and Church three times on Sundays and mid week service and Bible Studies and home prayer meetings in between my heart was troubling me some months after being Born Again as to the question of my relationship to my live in  girlfriend and I prayed on night and I saw the words fornication cross my mind in prayer and meditation with my eyes closed and I knew that I got my answer that we were not married in the Eyes of God and He gave me Grace and understanding until I was able to receive it and we moved to separate bedrooms...to be continued rough draft and unedited 

Book of Love by Who/Chapter Ten/ The Tragic and Loves and Life of Julious Caeser

   On another dark cold and still night in another one of my darkest and lonely nights recycling, forueging and salvaging for a living after my divorce and separation from my family and all that I loved and cast out back into a World that I have long forgotten on the streets and now in the waterways of Sausalito also living of my thirty foot sailing ship with a perpetual leaking in it that I couldat never leave my boat for any length of time and perfectly trapped in a situation of which there no escape due to porverty after signing over sixteen years of community property to my children's mother and house and home and children in the process in a incredible and diabolical web of intreque after marrying into the richest and most politically power family in virtually the riches and most desirable county to live in the world and I here reduced to surviving basically by foraging out of dumpsters for my basic needs and finding everything I needed except love of family home and children in the normal world that I once lived in and back on the streets of Sausalito with the poorest of the poor and the lowest of the low and remembering my first greeting back on the waterfront "Fuck You Asshole", by some Methhead !? And I was not accustomed to being talked too like that after being a family man and minister of God for the past sixteen years with three children and living in a beautiful house with three beautiful children and a beautiful wife and now reduced to eating and forging out of dumpsters and especially the Seven Eleven dumpster or which I never got sick eating out of and even the thrown away hot dogs that have been on the grill all day, until shift change and people say to pull ones self up by the bootstraps and one can't without boots and the divorce was timed after a three year period where I could not leave my home 🏘️ and some say it was agoraphobia and others that I was a man of God on a deep search within myself in the deepest and darkness caverns of my souls, mind and spirit and thinking that I may never come out of this "Dark Night of the Soul" ofsuffering and red which the book by the Spanish  Catholic Mystic "Saint John of the Cross", of which book was the greatest book on Spiritual suffering that I have ever read next to the book of Job, in the Bible and his total loss and restoration, the oldest book in the Bible some say and another great book on Spiritual suffering by John Bunyan author of the most published book every written in the original English language and his book called "Grace Abounding to the Chief of Sinners" , and if course verses from the book of Psalms like "Though I walk through the valley of death, I will fear not evil" and "They word in is a 🪔 lamp too my feet", at a time when it was so spiritually dark in my soul that words could not describe and a darkness that one can only feel wishing at night for the day break and during the day for the night again and unable to leave my beautiful home on a hill with a view and a perennial stream running though our yard with Redwoods and Ferns and a flower garden with fruit trees and a two room gust house anf two story building and even a bird house once used before and a little cement pond with deer and racoons and maybe even a mountain lion of bobcat in the neighborhood and a perfect wilderness and retreat in the midst of the central city of Marin County called "The Hud", and picture windows and ilver squirls and people in awe when visiting of living in our first floor or which we used as a homeless shelter with cable television and shower and telephone for the poor and homeless and outcasts during the Seventies and I lived in what looked like the Garden of Eden with even a large apple tree in the middle of our garden and plum trees and even tulips with forget me nots and a two car garage and all was well like it was with Job, before he lost it all and here I sit and lay prostrated on the living room floor and unable to move of walk away from by home for any reason at all and could only eventually make it to the garden and in this state for three years and my wife was very gracious and the children stepped over me on the way to school 🤣 and I lay and wait for them to come home a watch television with them and especially Seseme Street and I lay all day surrounded by books studying for it was the only thing that I could do for I was paralyzed otherwise and I could walk eventually in circles about our large living room with layers of carpet and padding as to be soft as a bed and as sat for hours either walking or praying or studying the Bible and Etymology when not staring at the coffee table for hours in a shear state of professional burn out from years of ministry from street ministry to planting a Church congregation in San Anselmo and opening our home to the homeless and our Church congregation starting a Church thrift store in San Rafael and meeting in the most beautiful Chapel in Marin County on top of Seminary Hill of which looked like a Castle and walking through a dreamscape, of wonder a glory and purpose and satisfaction and travelling internationally preaching the gospel and holding healing services from Finland and across Western Europe over land land sea a the way to Israel on one of my non stop missionary evangelist journeys that took six months from the time that I left home with  my music minister Kenneth Hopkins who eventually wrote the song "Whites Side Are You On" for the album "The Rose" with Bett Midler and all looked so chaotically beautiful in life and nothing to stop us except Heaven, in our youthful and energy driven days and I used to preach to be ready for our our dreams to be crushed someday in the preparation for the soon coming or our Lord and the persecution to come and I was prepared and ready for any outside assault and felt that no one could touch us outside and when it happened, it happened from in inside and from behind when no one was watching my back and like Julius Caesar who was on top of the world and the greatest general and most popular in history next to Alexander the Great who never lost a battle and was stabbed in the back by his friends and relations and especially poinent when Brutus his virtually adopted son brought the knife down ih him and is said to say "You to Brutus!?", for they were related some way for he had won the Civil War with his son in law who tose up against him after marrying his daughter and Pompey was filled with jealousy over Caesers victory in Gall now callsd France and chasing the Germans back across the the Rhian River, where he saw for the first time the bright blue bright blue eyed Germans with thiere red hair and bathing together naked and unashamed in the river,  both men and women and then turned his attention to beat back the Belgiums across thier border of whom he said we're the toughest fighting men that he ever fought and then crossed the English Channel and beat back the English and on returning was told to leave his army at the Rubicon River and come without his army to Rome to face charges that he overstepped his commission in Gall and enriched himself after first being welcomed as a hero for bringing back the leader of the revolt in Gall in chains and now after his second campaign he was being charged with treason for taking to much upon himself at a time when there were two Caesers and his son in law Pompey was his mortal and worse enemy and Brutus whom he loved and raised as a child or from childhood and son on one of his closest friends and the Senators who elected him were now concerned that Caeser had too much power and wealth and Co Ceaserships only lasted a year before reelection and he was gone for years in Gall, the biggest prize in Europe and of which gained him vast wealth and fame and Jealousy and now being driven by fear and not love and admiration they thought and believed that he had enough power to make himself an Emporer instead of just being satisfied as a Proconsel and fear and fear and jealousy and rage drove them to resist Julious as had made the fateful discusion to cross the Rubicon of which the Senate had stated that no Army shall cross and Pompey his Proconsul who led the opposing Roman army that gathered to defend Rome was defeated and fled to the Eastern part of the growing Roman Empire and continued the battle against Julious and was on his heels with Caeser on his trial and finnaly after a descisive battle in Greece Pompey his son in law fled too Egypt where he was betrayed by the locals and offered his head in a box to Ceaser of which horrified him as to wanting to make peace with his son in law and took his wrath on the perpetrators thinking that they were doing Julious a favor and slew  them and then joined in with Cleopatra in the Civil War that was going on with her younger  brother and together they defeated him and in the process of buying his own ships and the Egyptians fleet moored in Alexandria Harbor the fire spread to the Library of Alexandra and burnt major part of it and his own ships like Cortez did to signify no retreat!? Then Cleopatra and Ceaser had a love child even though Caeser was already married name Caeser also and returned to find him a hero in Rome for not only winning the Civil War but couquering Egypt also and but Cleopatra was not very happy with his new mistress for Romans were monogamous and she bore it without divorcing him out of love for he was now the most popular man in the world and the Romans loved him for making Rome  so great as to virtually rule the known world and now the most powerful Empire in history and hard to divorce a man like that and leave him to Cleopatra who was not welcome in Rome and soon left with Caesers only child who was eventually was lost to history and died mysteriously or was murdered for being the next hereditary Emporer after Julius was elected by the Senate for life as a single Council of which has never been done before except for when the Roman General Cincinnati was called out of retirement on his forty acre and a mule farm to be Dictator for life in order to beat back the Gaulactic in vasion in the North and after saving Rome retired again to go back to his farming and now we have a new Dictator for life again and the world would never know if Caerser would do the same due to his murder by a hangul of Jealous Senators and supporters of Pompey who they killed in front of his statue or bust in the Senate Chamber after his wife pleaded with him not to go that day for it was the Ids of March and a prophet had warned him of that day and his wife has a dream of his death and these were all Caesers closet friends and relations a greatest of all tragadies for he was much beloved of the people and gave them generously from his riches and was so popular that he even had a coin with his image stamped on it of which was the first time Prociucel, Council, Dictator or Emporer had ever done this before and at least while still living of which is also the custom today in the USA, And the war was not over for Rome for Caesers best and closet friend Mark Anthoney and Casers adopted son his nephew became the next Procoucul along with Mark Anthoney and wared against Brutus and his conspirators in Greece again and won and Mark Anthoney became Procoucul of the East and Agustus of the West and when a love letter was discovered by Agustus concerning Cleopatra and Mark Anthoney who was also married to his sister all hell broke loose in the Empire and a Civil War again broke out between East and West and Mark Anthoney was defeated in a navel battle off Greece and fled back to Egypt where Cleopatra already was or got there before him and as the stories go she died by letting and Asp bite her and Anthoney like most military officers do in defeat take their own lives with the sword and not the cowards way out by taking posion as Hitter did by taking a cyinide campusal and then shootng himself whole his mistress took the Cyinide...to be continued and please comment and correct history and Grammer for me if you like and be kind and email a correct chapter too me at peteromanowky@gmail.com and see you in Church on Sundays at noon til evening every Sunday in front of Sausalito City Hall Library for lunch and suppertime with candles and open mike ...love you all !!!

Book of Love by Who/Chapter Nine/Heart of Darkness

   My personal story and journey into a nightmare of darkness and speration and family and friends and soiled reputation begins while leaning over a dumpster in the dark of a Sausalito night while recycling and cursing the day I was born like Job in the Bible so to speak of at least cursing my situation and how I got there and what brought me so low as to like Elijah the prophet in his lowest moment under a tree in the wilderness and after slaying his five hundred prophets of Baal on his mountaintop too experience on Mount Carmel in modern day Haifa of which I remember also standing on the Mountain in Israel and looking out over the ocean and remember how that after Elijah prayed that the Heavens drop no rain for years as a punishment for worshipping the lust and sex god Baal and the sacrifices of babies too him like in an abortion clinic and remembering that a sign appeared after he prayed for the rain to return of a cloud in the form of a human hand and it began to rain again and seven years of drought and as I wondered this Bible passage in this Biblical place it began to rain 🌧️ and I felt like I was on the Mountain top with God and doing His will in Israel and my heart was full 🌝 if not breathless and like Elijah who then slew give thousand false profits with the sword after calling down fire on the mountain and lighting and destroying the sacrificed bulls as a sign of his power with God and the impotent prophets of Baal could only weep and cry and cut themselves try to get their false God of the World 🌍 Baal to bring down fire first and Elijah laughing and at the top of his game and mocking the false prophets and saying that maybe thier God is asleep and after this the most wicked women in Biblical history Jezebaal swore to murder him for his act of killing if having her false prophets killed and he fled into the wilderness south ⬇️ and sat exhausted under a juniper tree and prayed for death to take him being exhausted alone and hungry and after falling asleep woke up to find food and water that an Angel had left him while asleep and in the streagth of that meal marched into the wilderness of Siani and found a cave where Moses dwelt on the maountain in Arabia of where Saint Paul retreated also after his dramatic conversion and spent years listening to God there before entering into public ministry and of course there was water and food and bedouins to supply him in the wilderness and then while Elijah was standing in the cave entrance lighting thunder and wind and earthquakes passed in front of him but God was not speaking in these signs and wonders to him and he could not hear the voice of God in these natural events in the wilderness and then he retreated into the deepest park of the cave after experiencing all these natural events of which pagans for millienia called the gods of all these natural events and cycles and at the end his his darkest night and tunnel a sort of tomb and last resting place he heard a still small voice in the pitch darkness and quite and God said what ails you Elijah and he said that he had been very jealous and zealous for the Lord and now Jezebaal wants to murder me and here I am in hiding the only one left that hasn't bowed the knee too Baal and God said that he had five thousand believers that had not bowed the knee to Baal and that he should go to Syria and anoint a king and ordian Elisha to take his place before He takes him home in a charity made of fire as he had asked the Father to take him home and here I am wishing that I was dead also in Heaven in my lowest of moments in hiding in plain sight and recycling out of dumpsters in the dero of the night when all is quite like a monastic experience with nobody around and people even in the day time date not approach me me or talk to me while recycling and salvaging out of the marine and yacht harbor dumpsters rich in man's discarted play things and excess food and clothes and everything one can imagine that rich people throw away and feeling day and night as though I was in a monastery being punished, tried and tested in the cold of the dark still nights and feeling so all alone before retreating again to my anchored boat off shore just to be alone again after recycling a night long often til the dawn begins to break and the stars being my only company in these dark, cold and still nights and while wrestling with my hates and visions of revenge and retailation for my situation I began to hate womenkind for all their betrayals from Eve on down and felt like Saint Paul wrote that wives should be subject to thier husbands and Eve's curse was to cleave or to be dependant on their husbands and forgetting in my pain and sorrows and loss that brought me here to live ones wife unconditionally in exchange for their loyalty and live also, but like the winds and rains and storms of life one must be still to know that He is God and has everything under control and that there is a bigger picture out there and that this is only a test of ones faith and a severe test at that for someone called to experience such darkness in an earthly hell in a place called Sausalito on the San Francisco Bay for everyone's dream to come and live and but when all alone and broke and salvaging and living out of dumpsters one finds it hard to find company that one can afford, and as I was wrestling with my darkness and hate of womenkind and ugly thoughts in my dispair towards any man that would dare try to touch my three children and thier mother I can across a Playboy Magazine tossed by some rich yachty yachtye only I began to look into it as I usually leave them when I find them even though as friend said that he would buy any I find and sometimes stacks of them and I wouldn't for some things are not for sale and I have only bought one such magazine once in my life a sealed in plastic Hustler Magazine after he processed to be a Born Again Christian and changed his ways and his cartoon character Chester the Molester would become Chester the protector and after breaking the plastic seal at home it was the same old thing and maybe tuned down for it's hard for a ship to turn it's course so quickly after all it's years and weight and momentum and so I moved on and never watching or seeing pornography since becoming a Born Again Christian and even then I never remember ever watching a full blown pornography movie for instance but did take a glimpse at some home porn videos thrown away and looked into a few magazines that I found but never got hooked on thenn as I was salvaging and recycling and finnaly deduced that this stuff wi only make one frustrated and addicted so I began to just leave them where I found them and but this night in my darkness and temptation to hate I looked into the magazine and saw how beautiful these women looked again and said to myself how can I hate such beauty and so I returned home too my vessel and turned in the television and there was the host of the 700 Club visiting in San Francisco and telecasting and watching her as innocent as a gleeful child intoxicated by the beauty of San Francisco and it's surroundings and see pointed too the Marin Headlands on the other side of the Golden Gate Bridge and bust out that there was even a nude beach over there ☺️ of which I didn't even know even though it was in my backyard so to speak from Sausalito the community of bedroom community of San Franciscos suburb, so to speak and I took it as a 😁 sign to go and investigate and I knew the co host of the 700 Club was not being lustful but as innocent as a child and being former Miss America she do doubt had been proded, poked, tucked and stripped naked many times to glaring eyes of both men and women on her way up too the top and was accustomed to nudity in that profession as a model and again took it as innocence for to the pure in heart all things are pure the Scriptures teach and I went there and the first person I was naked was an overwieght women with a beautiful smile and fair skin and fairly youthful with what I can only describe as my first visit ever to a clothing option beach was her skin tone of which was married by stretch marks and and was my baptism into the world of nudity and saw for the first time what people looked like naked in general and I saw alm the faults, the veracose vains, the cottage cheese skin   and the streach marks from be overwieght and from pregnancy and tattoos in  places that one could do not believe as nist of these people were from liberal San Francisco for the beach is virtually hidden from sight on the Marin County side of the bridge and can plainly be seen from San Francisco so all  these with and pale office workers and indoor people came for the sun to bath and all the quote "Gay" and homosexual men in general were on one end of the long and stunningly beautiful volcanic beach with boulders of what looked like California red and green jade or what is called Serpentine rock with beautiful volcanic black sand with Carnilluans strewn about in the sand for the picking and a sma waterfall for showering and a large volcanic vent filled with water deep enough to cannon ball into and I felt like that I had come to and earthly Paradise with"  the big ships and liners sailing or cruising by in the distance and the Golden Gate Bridge entrance at ones feet and was quite overwhelming and the do called straight sun bathers with the "Gay" women on the opposite side from the "Gay" men as they didn't mingle much together and and obviously would rather meet fellow women even if they were straight and they would cuddle together and a was so peaceful and serene with no bikers or drinks or drug crazed meth addicts of heroin users in public and alm looked professional and had jobs and cars too drive across from San Francisco and not the to get waterfront of Sausalito with all it's burned out derelicts on meth and alcohole and alone and abandoned and some people would have sex discretely on the beach of touch one another and the police and Park Rangers never come unless 😭and an emergency and I felt all my hate and prejudice melt away and felt sorry especially for the Lesbians who had tattoos and pierced body rings everywhere on can imagine and some of the tattoos were gross and not lovely or artistic but just black strips sometimes and nothing fancy or multi colored if detailed like men's tatoos in a proverbial bar and I saw sadness and lonelyness in thier eyes also holding on to one another and everyone respectful and friendly with a leave you alone atmosphere and one can do thier own thing and so left a different person with more love and compassion in my heart for the human race naked and especially the women, that I began to hate and could have turned "Gay" in a way and maybe I did in a little way 🌈 in a good way for after all the largest cover ministry in the World for a time started with my preaching long earlier when I was a young Church planter in San Anselmo California in Marin County when our Church organist Frank Worthen who is with the Lord now after marrying eventually and had come to me oneer  Sunday and asked if if it would be appropriate to give a series of taped messages on our weekly radio program out of San Francisco about his deliverance from the homosexual and Gay lifestyle that his former minister while and organist in another Church, some twenty years earlier who had introduced him to the Gay lifestyle when he was 😃 a young man and had become addicted and lived with his co partner in the largest import export store in the County called the Back Market and as got older and couldn't find young Gay lovers to have sex with he resorted to going to the Black Rooms if San Francisco to have sex in the dark with strangers and was seriously contemplating suicide and no doubt thinking about jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge when a fellow newly Born Again Christian brother who worked for him had the keys tge most beautiful chapel in Marin County on Seminary Hill in San Anselmo where we had our Sunday services and he knelt down and prayed with him to receive the Lord Jesus Christ and was Born Again and I remember seeing him first in Church and he looked soer  bored beyond words and I didn't know that he had just received the Lord in his heart and I thought that he would never come totb our Church again and he came again and said that he used to be a Church organist and that could he be our Church organist and I was over whelmed and said yes of course and eventually he felt the need to reach "Gay" people for Christ and this was before the Aids epidemic and I let him do his shirt series of radio messages to reach Gays for Christ of which he called the Brother Frank Ministry the first ministry to reach Gays for Christ and meanwhile a local Church leader and Pastor in the next town was writhing a book called the Third Sex a book to reach homosexually addicted people for Christ and unbeknown too Frank he had a dream that he should go and meet this Baptist trained minister and and minister wrote his story into his book and the book became a sensation and Frank was invited on national television to tell his story on the Phil Donahue and others on the circuit and then he had another dream that I was his Elder in Christ, even though he was older then me and but the other minister offered him an office and position in his Church Ministry of which was vast and he left our Church eventually to become a pastor and Elder in that small but growing Jesus Movement denomination and co started his own ministry also called Love in Action with the help of so said minister and pastor working together and soon other ministries to reach Gays for Christ began popping up or were already there and forming into an umbrella organization called Exodus International and virtually all the correspondence came to Frank's ministies office and he became the defacto head of the World's largest cover ministry to reach Gays for Christ and it all started under my preaching and in our little congregation called Agape' Church of which means unconditional love in Greek and later Fank Started another ministry called the Lighthouse Ministries in San Rafael California before he went to be with the Lord after marrying and becoming a pastor himself and starting a ministry that will last forever in people's hearts of graditute for deliverance from harmful addictions such as sex and drugs...to be Continued and if anyone would like to help me word process this work or book please do for credits and love and royalties for Christ and then please do and or make comments and suggestions and corrections and I will love you for it either by email or posting peteromanowsky@gmail.com 

Book of Love by Who/ Chapter Eight/ The Naked Philosopher and Open Book too the World was Socrates the lover of Wisdom over Materialism of Which are Better then Rubies as Solomon Wrote

    Picture Socratese at the Gymnasium and  School in Athens during the athletic time with the youth of Athens and envisioned naked with the students of which the custom was to do thier athletics naked and him with only a towel and or without his dingy light robe that he usually wore on the streets in summer and winter and barefoot if I recall also from my reading history as he was not on staff on the equivalent of a University for the elite, and taught the students on their sports time of his philosophy and views of the war and he himself was later charged or accused of corrupting the youth of Athens with his Minamilist Philopsophy of life Atheism against  the Panthestic beliefs of the Greeks,  in general and sharing his wartime experiences as a veteran and Peace Nick with the students a d after experiencing the horrors of war and combat and was also a decorated war hero himself and Hoplite in the Pelapenisian War with Athens of which he was now retired and an honderably discharged veteran, from the horrors and non sense of the long and drawn out war with Corinth and Sparta and sharing his support  with supporting the  Generals of his thier accusations that the Generals on trial for their lives accused of abandoning thier fellow seamen in a navel battle with the Peleponesians, whom he supported thier innocence after by lottery became jury foremen at thier trial after the navel battle against the Peleponesians and Corinth in the war with Athens that was dragging on forever,  with no peace in sight and supported the Generals or Animals in thier innocence in the accused abandonment of thier fellow seamen after a navel battle in which he and the other Generals were accused of abandoning thier men at sea after the battle,  due to a storm that made them unable to rescue thier fellow sailors who were in the water or clinging on to thier wreaked ships that sunk and destroyed due to a storm that made it impossible to rescue thier fellow matines and were now on trial for their lives for desertion and abandonment of thier fellow seamen, before a jury of some five hundred Athenians and he being made 

 foremen by lottery from some five hundred justist by a divine twist of fate and being a peace also a peace activist and latter on in his own trial was accused of being associated with a well known leader in politics and war of which he was also was a friend  and fellow !? And this story to be told later on in this work andnhe was accused of being implicated in the sending the fleet of ships too Sicily to crush it's navy for it's support for Corinth and Sparta,  in the greatest navel disaster during the war, in which the entire fleet of the Athenian ships was destroyed off the coast of Sicily of which only one man survived to tell the story who returned as an  unshaven and dishoveled looking homeless man and vagabond and  stranger from his ordeal and escape from the navel battle and survived the journey back home too Athens. To tell the story of how the entire  Athenian fleet was destroyed and that  he was the only survivor of this greatest of all  expeditionary fleet,  that was going to destroy the Sicilian navy of which was allied to Corinth and the Peleponeseia and this one  lone survivor said that those that were not killed, were taken captive into slavery by the Sycilians and the whole of Athens was in shock horror that thier loved ones and brethren and fellow citizens and their greatest of fleets was destroyed, with their fellow Athenians and this Greek tragady of immense preportions somehow was  associated with Socratese for his friendship  or association with the one who conceived the plan to send the fleet too Sicily, in this second and greatest navel battle of the war that broke the back of the greatest navel power  in the Mediterranean and the final straw in this on going war and setting aside the fact that Socratese was a friend or associated with and contrbuted to the jury that finally and ironically condemed Socratese to death in his own trial latter on in the story and I will attempt to unravel the timelines and details of these two navel events and Socrateses' support to the Generals or "Admirals" as we would call them today, And I will seek to unravel the intrigue and the relationships and timelines with the so invoked players in this drama in this epic period of Greek history that brought Athens finally too it's knees and broken dominance of Athens that led to the Philosophical Age of Athens, after it's defeat by plage and the Spartans and Corinthians who now had a superior fleet to the Athenians, after the final destruction of the Athenian fleet in the harbor off Sicily and in the meanwhile in the  this first navel battle of the alleged desertion and drowning sailors in the sea was the trial going on with Socratese as Jury Foremen and influenced the Jury in his own trial for Atheism, against the Greek gods and the corrupting of the youth of Athens and with his anti war sediments and his association with a major political figure who was accused of treason had made him a very unpopulater Street Philosopher and will attempt to unravel these associations and accusations later on in this book as I go for my manner of writing is called self correcting as and I vertually never go back and cross anything out and rewrite but go further on and correct and repeat facts, speculations,  machinations and inspirations as I go and try to explain the under currents of Socretese's own political connections, accusations and religious heresies trial, where politics and religion become one in Socretese's trial and conviction and all the under currents for the Spirit of what is taught and written is more important then the details and timelines of his historical period and the turning point of history and safe to say the Socretese had both religious and political enemies and when all is said and done the Athenians grieved after Socretese drank the Hemlock that he was condemed to drink as well as Admiral whom he defended was condemed to drink also with his Generals of whom done escaped the Hemlock by going into self exhile after paying the usual bribes associated with trials of condemnation of which Socretese was expected to do also having well to do friends and supporters like Plato and his money who paid the bribes to the politicians and the jailers for his own escape and release into the area of Thessolonia of which in Greek mythology was associated with the fields of Ilysian with it's mythical horses roaming free and the  ocean beaches of the Greek version of Paradise, but Socretese was not thinking of retreating of hiding of fleeing too the early paradise Thessolonia of which was out of reach of  the Athenian authorities and living or spending his last days in exhile in Paradise, but out of conviction, humiliation and the injustice of his condemnation and old age and having a younger wife with young children felt no doubt in his advanced age it would be impractical for him to start a over again in Thessolonia and although his wife was a really hard person to live with anyway and had friends and supporters in Athens to take care of his young wife and children he decided to drink the hemlock in protest and affiliation with the Generals condemed to death who also drank the Hemlock of which he si fervently defended at thier trial so they all drank the hemlock together in protest and honor except for those generals that paid the required bribes and escaped to thier own Ellsium on earth and he chose with his fellow generals before drank their condemnations down with honor like Rommel did in World War Two after his involment to kill Hitler and save his family if he promised to kill himself, otherwise his wife and children would have to pay the price and as Socretese in his old age and lisd of pention could not be able to support his wife and family in exhile he felt that he was doing the best for his family and his trouble wife was young enough to marry  again to a now famous Philosopher as the people of Athens grieved and mourned for what they had done to such a humble and yet outspoken and innocent man who believed in one God like Plato and his name was not Zues the god who was more like a sinful man then a God and the final nail in Socretese's coffin according to Plato who was feeling sickly over his condemnation and was busy paying off the bribes for his exhile and couldn't be in the room with Socretese's closest followers said that it was the Play called "The Clouds" written and preformed by Athens most famous theatrical writer and playwrite was what finnaly killed him as a man with his head in the clouds so to speak and when he spoke at his own trial and defend his said that the people of Athens owed him free meals for life at the greatest dinning table in Athens and for the most important people for all his wisdom and could have made a plea bargain of which was the custom also at the time this more infuriated the Athenians at his trial and he remained stubborn and defiant at his innocence for his Atheism of the Greek gods and the charge of corrupting the youth of Athens with his teachings and philosophical and practical view of life that was not completely controlled by the gods of Homer in every detail of ones life and further more he was charged with charging money for his wisdom of which he venenently denied like Saint Paul also would deny centuries later and supported himself as the most successful missionary in history although he also said that the labourer is worthy of hier and he would have non of it except for expedience and travel when not supporting himself by making tents and providing work for his concerts and brothers and sisters and having tent meetings and prayers together in his hand made sanctuaries long before any Church buildings were ever built and I also have gone through life never profiting of being paid for my preaching and ministry, like a hireling and not a good Shepard from the heart and not for profit although when traveling abroad as a missionary evangelist throughout Western Europe and Israel, I would take support as I went from country to country and town too town and Church to Church recieving travelling monies for good and lodging took the next town and at home, only went into debt supporting myself and others in the ministry and gave a my community property too my wife and children who are we take.care of and all three grown children are University graduates and I myself was forced into exhile after the external forces and circumstances of the  World sourced my wife too send me I to internal exhile on my ship or boat on San Francisco Bay where I live anchored off shore and have been on my boat full time since nineteen eight for some thirty eight years and counting anchored in the middle of the bay through some of the fireces storms of life save for three years in a Harbor in Sausalito California called Galilee Harbor for three years and like Moses in the desert wilderness for forty years, I've been in a watery  wilderness all this time and still am as I write these words in my watery and floating writers cabin and free from all distractions as I write for most all of us that live on boats or vessels anchored as out casts have of ei become hermits and have learned to live solitary lives as mostly single or physically  abandoned men and women from family and friends and have learned to live without human company of physical love and are forced into the Spirit World or drugs and after decades of ground breaking missionary activity on San Francisco Bay and Sausalito I still support myself in the ministry with a little help from my friends and am in debt to no man on earth as Saint Paul taught and am in debt only too a corporation called Bank of America on my credit card in the few thousands and am able to pay the minimum from by Social Security and added physical disability payments and no man on earth can say that I owe them anything but love as I continue to minister every Sunday at noon to evening feeding and providing for my fellow abandoned and impoverished friends with two meals and pantry every Sunday in front of the Sausalito City Hall starting at noon and with again a little help from my friends and brothern in the mist beautiful place in Sausalito to have an outdoor service and fellowship in the Lord Jesus Christ