I am feeling virtually totally exhausted inside after some six or seven years of providing dinners and fellowship and music every week and only missing three Sundays from weather and I'm feeling burned out and a women alcoholic disrupting of the service has continued on for over two years and the police showed up and could do nor would do anything and all they could do is smile at the tragedy of an unhinged woman who has wooed everyone or bullied anyone in a supporting her as an enabler and feeling sorry for her and for her abortion and child taken away and whatever horror stories she has been through and us she gathers enablers together to blame the alcohol and not on her evil Jezebel ways and the women make excuses for her like women do with each other for their abhorrent Behavior when seduced by an evil mind and the men all want to have sex with her body and now dominates the city of Sausalito like Jezebel and the Book of Revelations who taught fornication in the church and fornicated with its members and so I may be taking an indefinite break from Sunday services and this Sunday, I may be having Church online and with my friend Sandy in Mendocino and I haven't decided yet and it's still up in the air but my inner feelings are a deep tiredness and need to heal my insides from spiritual and professional burnout and that Jezebel has been the last straw and I will continue having Sunday services and but they may be more spotty or I may take a month off and see how things go for I have diminished all of my money feeding people over the years and I'm in debt to 5,000 on my credit card and I'm spending five six up to $700 a month and virtually my entire social security check to feed Minister and entertain people for these past six or seven years and by not having church it puts more money in my pocket and I can travel and move around and have gas money to go to Mendocino and Slab City in Los Angeles and Muir Beach on weekends and I've been a Slave to my desire to minister instead of a son of God doing it out of the sheer joy and pleasure of giving and it has become burdensome and toil some to me now from the lack of appreciation and support and the insults that I have received and while doing good and spending my own money on the basics and then being mistreated and are not supportive when attacked by alcoholics like "Jezabel"and mental cases like Kenny and their vicious biting dog and even a. Anchorout stuck his forefinger in the front of my face with a little cigarette and I had to knock it away from my face and I stood up and I told him if you want to start something go ahead and this is a sure sign of burnout and I was grouchy and snapping at people from lack of support and helping me against The Wiles of "Jezebel" and finally I have exhausted my resources for far too long and we'll have to use most of my social security check to pay the rent on a condo or an apartment after using 1/3 of my income and then utilities if not included of which could possibly be up to $500 a month and that would take most of the money that I spend every month for Sunday barbecue propane and condiments and hot dog buns and catch up and mustard and barbecue sauce and napkins and paper plates and comes when necessary and cases of Coca-Cola and that I forget to mention propane and all the labor involved of which gets me home every Sunday in the middle of the night whether it's calm on the bay or slightly windy and choppy and scary and all these dark nights over the years after church alone going out to my boat totally exhausted and taken me 3 days To recover every week from the emotional physical and spiritual strain of up to a 12-hour event of which I refuse it to just have a short and sweet meeting and when I do it it's got to be all day and all afternoon and Into the Night also and or take a break and start to rebuild my resources and by selling my boat I'll be able to pay off my credit card debt accrued from feeding for feeding and comforting people with hot food and drink and not to forget a shot of vodka and I used to bring wine and but you would get drunk on it and a vodka bottle is easier to control the bag of wine for commun and all those that say vodka is Jules problem or wrong the alcholic man or women is the problem and not the vodka and not the people that she bullies to buy her vodka and Bullies to disturb the service if she doesn't yet vodka shot and her Coke and it's virtually impossible to say no to her threats intimidations and Bullies of which are all over as well as subliminal and this disruptive woman along with her abused and potentially vicious dog who barks through much of our services and intimidates other passing dogs as well as a friend of hers, who used to accompany her who is always complaining and criticizing everything and then her bringing an alcoholic who can't control his drinking and a druggie along with her during some of the services and not too long ago and up until not so recently and she virtually is the only one left in town and leader of all sin and disruption and theft and fornication and adultery and abortion and whatever other sins she's committed as well as the approximately two years other service if not more that she and her demented and drunkmor stoned or being a dry drunk or sexually perverse cohorts come to disrupt and not appreciate the sacrifices made in time and money and energy service and services provided over the years!
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